Jessica's MindSay Blog

~BoReD~

angelicpawn — 2004-04-03T04:04:00-05:00

Man.....guess what, it's Saturday again, and.....no surprise....I'm at home alone...why me? I am so fucking bored. I have nothing to do, I haven't taken driving school yet, so I can't drive myself anywhere...I don't have many friends that drive that would want to come all the way down to Onset to pick me up. Gosh man....I am so fucking bored...do you even know what it's like to sit at home for 5 weeks straight and not go to the mall, movies, see a friend, or even anyone other than the same faces you see every day? It sucks...that's how it feels.

SoMeBoDy KiLl Me AlReAdY......

YaWn

angelicpawn — 2004-04-05T09:04:00-05:00

Man....I'm tired......I got good news though....I'm going to be in Lakeville this weekend....I'm gonna be going to possibly see Hellboy with my brother, then going to my Aunt Lisa's house in Assonet fer Easter....I miss being in Lakeville...Wahh...cry for me...I actually kind of miss school....I feel bad for Jason, because he sent me an e-mail that said he wanted to have dinner with me, but not to tell my mom, but it just so happened that that was the one and only time that she had actually decided to sneak up behind me and read over my shoulder...man...that sucks...I feel bad for Jason...though I prolly would have gone out with him...just cause he's a chill guy...I don't think I'm sexually or romantically attracted to him...I just think it's chill to hang with him...I feel bad cause my mom read that....and she's gonna go psycho on him...shiza...that sucks man...i also feel bad for my mom...cause she's had "relations" wit this guy...man...I feel bad...she thinks that I'm like in love with him or something...I'm totally not...shit...

HmMmMmMmM.......

angelicpawn — 2004-04-06T05:04:00-05:00

Let's see if I can get some more coincidences to the cool people out there...like Oji-san...yay!...

I had to go to the doctor's office today...man...I hate the doctors everywhere, except for my regular primary care physician, Dr Fasanello. She stopped work to have her baby a few days, or about a week ago. So...then I saw Dr. McQuaid...She wasn't the way I remembered her...maybe she was having a bad day today...but usually she is happy and very personable...she prolly just had a bad day...I don't know...today she said she wanted me to get more blood work done....*hmph*...blood work can take a flying leap...It's funny how I used to be afraid of needles, but since I got the clots, and was on Coumadin, so I had to have my blood checked every three days for about 5 months...I'm not so scared of them...needles don't really faze me anymore...They don't even hurt...Anyways...We had to go pick up Josh off of the late bus, cause he stayed after school for the Gaming Club, so mom went to go pick him up while I stayed on the phone with Kathryn...Mom told me later that she saw Kristyn (Nachos) and Jenn (Dixiecup) walking their dogs...So when she got back we started off to go back to Barbara's. I made Barbara lamb (UGH! NaStY!) and I had pasta, yeah, you know I'm a mega carb gal...I gotsta love the Italian food...w0oTiE w0oT...SO...now I'm here...that's my story..Barbara's watching Wheel of Fortune and talking to the dog, and I'm sitting here, being my bored normal self...until one of the sexi people on my ever-abundant buddy list ims me and saves me from myself...lol...

RaWrM....

angelicpawn — 2004-04-07T01:04:00-05:00

Hmmm...it's eerie to hear about all these kids killing themselves after they were put on antidepressants. It's kinda scary to hear about all that when I am on one of the medicines that has not been fully tested...Celexa...hmmm...it's freaky to hear all of the symptoms that these people have, cause most of the time, I feel the same way. DePrEsSeD....

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angelicpawn — 2004-04-15T04:04:00-05:00

yeah....i'm bored...i got my nails done today...

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angelicpawn — 2004-04-26T06:04:00-05:00

Yeah...I am so royally pissed off...I am here on the Cape to take care of my aunt.What I do is mostly the custodial care...aka...I cook, clean, and do her secretarial work for her.She gets a nurse for 1 hour, twice a day.There's a certain nurse who comes in the mornings, then a different one who comes in the evenings.The evening lady's job is to get my aunt from her wheelchair to her bed and then to get her undressed, clean her up, dress her in nightclothes, and to make sure she is comfortable.I swear, all the times that I am here, I have to do all the work because this lady cannot do anything on her own...I swear to god, man, she pisses me off because I always have to do everything....It's her fucking job, why should I have to do it....am I being paid to do this shit?No...but she is and never mind that, but what she does manage to do without my help is done is a haphazard manner and is never done right.It makes me mad...because my aunt basically thinks this lady is god...she is like 40 years old, and she needs help with everything...I mean, she should be geting this care, not giving it to other people...she acts like a total dunce...I mean...god...sometimes...I just feel like sticking a spork in her eyeball socket and shoving her out the fucking door...SHIT MAN!

Mad.....RaWr!

angelicpawn — 2004-05-04T11:05:00-05:00

Yeah, so this morning is when I find out what Skeletor and the 'rent decided about my life. It all started cause of when I went into the hospital. I was in there for about three months, and during that time, the school never took the initiative to get me a tutor, or even give me any work at all. My mother, my doctors, and my psychiatrists had called the school multiple times to get anything, but they wouldn't get off their lazy asses to get anything to me. Then, when I got back into my own home, and was recuperrating, the school waited about three months to send me a tutor. So, let's count boys and girls...September, October, November, December, January...5 months, and I had no school work done at all. This was through no fault of my own, however. I started to get tutoring around Mid-January. Then, guess how much tutoring I got? ONE HOUR A WEEK! Algebra, Earth Science, World History, and Language Arts...One hour a week..not one hour each, one hour to fit all of them in! How stupid is that?! How in the hell am I supposed to make up 5 months of missed work with one hour a week?! Well, anyways, shortly after I started the tutoring, I had to go back in the hospital, so the tutoring stopped...then, whenI got out of the hospital, neither the tutors nor the school called my house to set back up the tutoring. SO, I decided to go down to Onset, to help take care of my aunt, who had just gotten out of the hospital herself. SO I've been down here since. I think the last day of school is June 18th, or somewhere close to that...but the 'rent got a letter in the mail from Skeletor and the school saying that they wanted me to come back to school. So, it's what, May 4th today, they want me to come back for 6 fucking weeks?! I don't fucking think so...I will be so pissed if they decided that. Well, the 'rent wouldn't let me go to the meeting yesterday, so I get to find out what everyone else decided !ABOUT ME! this afternoon. Grr!

YaY!

angelicpawn — 2004-05-04T11:05:00-05:00

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I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

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I adopted a cute lil' gothy fetus
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I adopted a cute lil' monkey fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

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I adopted a cute lil' cow fetus
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I adopted a cute lil' June birthstone fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

I F*cking Hate My Life!

angelicpawn — 2004-05-11T08:05:00-05:00

Sometimes I just wish I could die. I sit and wonder how many ways there are to kill myself. I have my sleeping pills upstairs. All it takes it one cup of water. I've started cutting again. *sigh* Yay for me...I thought I was past that, but I guess not. I stopped taking my celexa, my klonipen, and my neurontin. Yeah...I'm really sticking it to the man. Worst thing of all is I can't go to the march this Saturday. Worse than being depressed is being repressed. I'm bisexual and I can't even go the Youth Pride March this Saturday! I am going to fucking die.

I Just Don't Know Anymore....

angelicpawn — 2004-05-15T01:05:00-05:00

Yeah...It's been a while since I wrote. Not a lot has been going on. Just mostly the same old shit, really. The 'rent said I wasn't going to go to the pride march, which is...eh...currently happening at this very second. I am so depressed and so pissed off. Nick hasn't called me in a week, which is kind of depressing and then kind of pissing me off. I called his house last night, but then his mom reminded me that he went on the Choir Trip to Six Flags. She said he'd be back at 10. I told her that whatever time he got in, he should call me. She said she was writing it down as we spoke. She even re-wrote my number, so he'd remember it. Lo and behold, nary a call did I get a call last night. I called Nick at 12 this afternoon, and he aid he was too tired to call e last night, so whatever, then he said he had to go and he would call me in an hour. So, I made lunch, and here it is, ten minutes past one o'clock and no call. Whatever...maybe he's mad at me for some reason. I don't know why he would be. I just don't know anymore.

MCAS!

angelicpawn — 2004-05-18T01:05:00-05:00

Yeah...So I took mcas this morning. It was kinda easy, but then again, I always found english to be easy for me. I fell asleep during session 1. I blacked out, I just couldn't stay awake. Thanks hypoglycemia! Mr. Lincoln let me stay at lunch for all three lunches, so that was fun. I saw everyone I wanted to. Kara is sitting i the library aswe speak, and I'm contemplating just going up to her and being like, "Do you realize that when you run your mouth, that you hurt people?!" I don't think she even understands. I feel so bad for Kathryn, cause she's my bff, but it makes me so pissed that Katie and Kara and Katie S. say stuff about her. RUMORS SUCK!

YaY!

angelicpawn — 2004-06-08T03:06:00-05:00

Go....go....go...go shortie...it's your birthday...we gonna party like it's your birthday...

So...yeah...yesterday was my birthday...Saturday was my party...it was pretty fun. Kathryn and Mike started going back out...I am so happy for them...Maybe NIck and I and thewm can go on a double-date sometime...rather than goinf with fucking Heather...like Nick keeps suggesting...when he knows I absolutely fucking hate Heather...and I doubt she even has a boyfriend/girlfriend to even go on a date with anyways. Grr...anyways...I think I'm gonna start smoking again...cause Nick does...and fuck my health..right? If he smokes...and I do...then I won't notice when his mouth tastes like cigarrettes...because mine will too...right? Yeah......right....anyway...I'm kinda a lot upset that Alissa, Jay, and Cymone didn't come to my party...at least Alisa sent me an email explaining why...and said Happy Birthday to me anyways. Jay and Cymone didn't call or send an email saying that they weren't coming...so I assumed they were...and then they just didn't show up...so..yeah that kinda pissed me off...and I missed them.
As Jason's birthday present to me...he convinced my mom to let me get a tattoo....woot woot...I am so fucking happy....*sings and dances* I'm getting a tattoo...cause I'm so fucking cool....I'm getting a tattoo...yes... a tattoo! I'm getting a tattoo for my 16th birthday present...and Dan's supposed to be sending me money or something...so...yeah...NICE!

WOWZERZ!

angelicpawn — 2004-06-08T03:06:00-05:00

Yeah...so Brian just called me and informed me that our very own Scottie gave Steve's Aaron a little...umm...penis-in-mouth action...so yeah...interesting...And we wonder why rumors get started...because people *(like Brian)* call other people...and randomly blurt out..."HEY! Did you talk to Scott? I guess he went to the movies and gave Aaron head!" Like I really needed to know that, first of all...and second...why tell me? It's not like I fucking talk to any of the people who used to be my friends and ....like I'd tell them ANYWAY...I'm no gossiper...yeah...so I blurt shit out on Mindsay..but hardly no one on here knows who I am...and anyways...who is gonna read my fucking journal out of all the other cooler ones on here anyways? And I'd like to thank Cas for wishing me a Happy Birthday when no one else did on my day besides my brother...not even my boyfriend did...when I told him it was my birthday. Anyways... yeah... that sucks monstrously!
Yeah...sure...I just read Kristy's mindsay and she definitely didn't say anything about my party Saturday...so I feel all unimportant...so BOO-HOO! I can't blame Scottie...I guess...Aaron is a little cutie pie...though not as sexi as some people I know...I am so mad that Corie got upset at my party...I wish she would've had more fun....and I feel like shit...because it was all at my party and she is mad at Brian and Scottie now...though I'm sure it won't last long...cause those boys are so loveable..and Scottie is definitely sexi and I love him...hehe. I can't wait to go to the mall with Ashley this Friday. Maybe we'll see other people...like Alissa....and I'll get to say Hi finally...and I'll spend my giftcard that the wonderful Crisco got me to my favorite store...Hot Topic.

Anyways...I'm gonna go look for tattoo ideas for me....bye!

Fucking Pisses Me Off.....

angelicpawn — 2004-06-10T09:06:00-05:00

First off...Let's say Hi to Crisco...cause she commented to me...and I love her...hehe WAFFLES!

My mother is a fucking bitch...I wonder what'd she'd have to say if she found out her baby daughter was going to fuck her boyfriend as soon as she possibly could...and her baby daugheter is a closet nympho and that she was going to go find someone to get her tongue pierced now that she had the money to pursue her goal of total and utter slutness. I wonder what she'd say. I hope she'd have a fucking heart attack....no....I hope my whole family is driving along...getting McDonald's or Dairy Queen or some other fast food that's fucking making them fatter and fatter...when all of a sudden a Mac Truck comes out of nowhere and smashes their car to smithereens and runs it off the fucking road...then it bursts into motherfucking flames and they all die. That would be good...then the government would be forced to find my fucking birth father...unlike my mother who promises and promises and then doesn't lift a motherfucking finger to help me find him. Then I would go get to live with him...and any rat-infested hole would be better than on motherfucking Taunton Street in fucking Lakeville. Yeah...oh no...I'll give out my address...I think I'm gonna go email Jay...from Braintree...and maybe I'll ask his phone number and find out if he can come get me and take me to an empty parking lot somehwere so he can fuck my brains out. Seeing as how my boyfriend never calls me and he....like...I have no fucking clue...I guess he wants to wait till we're 18...I say fuck that. He...I don't know...I love him to death...but I never see him...and he never tries to see me...and I'd fuck him faster than he could moan my name...I guess I hope he brings it up so I could get some sex.

*(Yeah...I love the cock...and the puss...cause I am bi...and will fuck anything...cause am so goddamn horny!)*

Damn...I wanna go out and get laid...shit. If Scottie'd do it...ya know what...shit...I'd jump on him faster than fucking Randy would! DaMn!

YaY!

angelicpawn — 2004-06-10T10:06:00-05:00

So yeah...if the 'rent doesn't bitch out...then I am getting my tattoo tomorrow night around 5 or so...it's gonna be awesome...I think I might ask the tat guy if he can kick my mom out of the room and he can do a tiny tattoo on my stomach that says "slut" haha..I'd love it... anyways..I'm thinking of either getting a tribal at the base of my back...or getting wings between my shoulder blades. Wish me luck!

....and somebody please FUCK ME!

Yes...I'm a Mindsay Klepto!

angelicpawn — 2004-06-10T10:06:00-05:00

Copy and paste this into a comment and tell me what you think about me muthafacko!

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out about me?
13. Emotionally, what stands out about me?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married? And who to?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your Mindsay and see what I say about you?

FuCk!

angelicpawn — 2004-06-11T09:06:00-05:00

Yeah...so it wasn't the mother who bitched out on me...it was Jason. He was supposed to call me today and tell me how to get to this guy's house so that he could tattoo me...but he never called me...so I never knew how to get to the guy's house...which was fucked up...because I told my friends I was getting my tat done tonite..but now I seem like a fucking liar because Jason never called. Shit...I look like such a big dork now. And not only that...but I am so pissed...because he told me that I would get it today. I am so gonna bitch Jason out when he finally does call me. I am mega pissed...I will be getting it soon...and within a week or I will do it my fucking self!

UnClE FuCkEr!

angelicpawn — 2004-06-14T02:06:00-05:00

Hey Terence!....Hey Philip!

Yeah...just thought I'd do a little South Park movie reminiscing. Anyways..I am so pissed.

1. Again, Jason said I would get my tattoo...but he has not come through again. What is this? The third time he said I'd get it...and then he never comes through. Last nite..the mother said that he called and said he couldn't get in touch with Adam...and that he was wicked tired anyway. Whatever. Then he said I'll prolly get it today. Then he calls the mother's cell this morning..and tells her that he finally got in touch with Adam, and that the guy works during the day, so I'll more than likely get my tattoo done this weekend. I am getting so pissed. I can see once...or even twice he put it off...but if he cancels on me this weekend...it will be the fourth time...and I will never talk to him again. Well...I'll talk to him long enough to make him get me my tattoo.Hehe.
2. Brian invited me to go down to the cape with him for Independence day this year. I went last year..and it was wicked fun. Brian's lately been upsetting me for no reason. I'd like to think maybe I'm just being extra sensitive...but I don't think I am. I mean, I love Brian, because he's one of my closest friends. He has been for years. Maybe it was just the one comment he made about Nick..and the necklace he got me for my birthday present. I loved it...and Brian made a comment about how he saw the exact same one at some market and Nick must have paid all of 5 dollars for it...and all kinds of stuff. Then I got mad at him, and I was like, you know..Brian...you're really starting to piss me off. The he said, "Oh, and I suppose you're going to say that it's the thought that counts?" I said Damn straight...and he was like, Oh, Jess...only pussies say that. I was struck speechless...

I love Nick..and I couldn't care less if he hadn't gotten me anything...because I love him...and his love is all the present I need. SO THERE!

Canadian Burger eh?

angelicpawn — 2004-06-26T07:06:00-05:00

Oh woman...

Yeah...that's me and Chelsea's saying, because we were tired of everybody, including ourselves always saying "Oh man", so we decided to make it into Oh woman.

Yeah...I just got out of the hospital again yesterday...I was in there for...*counts* Sat, Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed, Thurs, Fri, yeah... an exact week. How special am I now?!

*Who called for Downtown Clowny Brown?!* Oh yeah...you know how much I love me some Method and Red!

I am so fecking bored lately. I don't know if my insurance will cover the meds that the doctor prescribed me for my side pain. It's called Flexorill, or something like that. I have so much pain in my side now...and they made me leave the hospital when I was still in pain. Cause nurse Bitch called my mother...even though the doctor said that morning that he'd see how the ultrasound went, and that he'd talk to us in the morning and see if I was ready to go home.

I have no idea what I'm going to do this summer. I suppose that I'll get a job, cause I needs me some money! I filled out my application to BK, now all I need to do is turn it in.

Brian wants me to hang with him on the 4th, but I already said to Nick that I wanted to chill with him on the cape and watch the fireworks and shit. And Brian's having his going away party on the 4th, so it's not like I can say, no...but I wanna hang with Nick...cause I haven't seen him since my birthday party. And that's a long time. Shit man...And Brian doesn't like Nick at all...so he said he doesn't want to invite Nick...but maybe I can be down on the cape...and then hang with Nick and Nick and I can stop by Brian's just to chill for a little while. I love Brian to death...but he's only going away for a month...and he'll have more fun in Europe than he ever would here in the summer anyways. So I think I'll do that. What I have to do, though, is get a new bathing suit...cause I don't have one. And not a two piece either, Scottie...cause I know how much you got upset about Jess's. LMAO!

I miss NIck...boo-hoo...I wanna see him, but I, like, never can. ARGH!

Oh yeah...my library books are overdue...heh.

Bored...

angelicpawn — 2004-06-29T08:06:00-05:00

SO yeah...I am so bored right now. I have so much to do. I can't wait till I get called back to find out whether I have a job or not. I need some money. I guess there's a whole big thing going on with my mother now. I mean, I know she gets disability benefits, but I guess she was supposed to reapply for them, but then the last minute came and she went to reapply yesterday, so I guess we're not gonna have money to do anything for a long time. Maybe if she did get a real job, she'd stop sitting around the house and bitching at me for every little thing that happens. I need a job so bad. Worst thing is...I am going to be hanging out on the Cape and relaxing for the 4th of July with my boyfriend, and I don't even have a bathing suit, and the mother says she can't afford to buy me a bathing suit, because she has no money. That's just great. Nothing says hot and sexy more than a chick swimming in shorts and a tshirt. This sucks...

In other news...Scott, Aaron, and I hung out Monday. It was funny. Aaron brought over Steve's Gamecube, and we messed around and Aaron kicked our asses all over the place. Scottie...all the while was screaming at Brandon ( his little brother) to shut the fuck up. I totally feel sorry for the kid. I mean...how is he gonna grow up...with a brother like Scottie? I mean...I love you to death, you've always been one of my friends Scott...but ohmigod! Poor Brandon. Then, "The Twins'" mother called Scottie's house and told him to go look for their rabbit, cause it got loose again. So we all went and looked for their dumb rabbit. Scottie got wicked tore up carrying it back to their house. He had red welts all over his stomach and arms, cause, it was a pretty big rabbit. Then, Scottie's Stepdad? got home, and Scottie, Aaron, and I went out to eat at Lorenzo's. Oh my FUCKING GOD! Aaron and Scottie...dumb pricks...kept pushing the booth I was in backwards. The booths aren't bolted down, and they were on the side against the wall, so they put their feet on my booth and kept pushing it backwards. I was 3 feet away from the table at one point. I got so freaking mad...oh my god. They wouldn't stop. And poor Aaron, he couldn't eat because of his tongue piercing, and Scottie, luckily didn't eat any dairy products, so he didn't get sick...Scottie wants me to go to Lazer Gate with him this weekend in Fall River, but I won't be able to, because I have no more money. I would love to go though. Damn me and my ghetto poorness! That's why I never do anything, because yes, I would love to go out and chill with people, but I never have any money to do anything! DAMN IT!

Another Instance of Klepto-ism

angelicpawn — 2004-07-01T06:07:00-05:00

Hey, so I told you I was a Mindsay Klepto! I swiped this from Kristin's Mindsay.

x____ Info-izzle _____x

[x] they call me: Jessica
[x] also: Jess, Jesse, Waffles
[x] sex: Name the place and time, and I'll be there...
[x] my first breath of air: June 7th 1988
[x] age: 16...eh
[x] status: In Love *with Nick*
[x] occupation: in between jobs...
[x] nationality: French, Irish, and Scandinavian
[x] best buds: Crisco, Brian, Scottie, K Gizzle

x_______REWIND_______x

[x] most memorable memory: Getting dirty looks from the lady on crutches when I came out of the handicapped bathroom. Lol @ Crisco!
[x] worst memory: My lung surgery
[x] first word uttered: eh?
[x] first friend ever: Kathryn

x_______FAST FORWARD_______x

[x] College: I want to go to some small college as far away from Lakeville as possible, possibly majoring in Nursing
[x] occupation: Nurse, or Lawyer
[x] mobile: phone? yes...
[x] future resident of: Cali
[x] wedding: To Nick?
[x] children: many! I'm a baby making machine!
[x] looking forward to: Sex with Nick ALL THE TIME!
[x] NOT looking forward to: high school reunions

_______PLAY______

[x] feeling: Good...for now
[x] Listening: Josh's TV is on Nickelodeon...
[x] Talking to: Myself...as I try to answer the questions!
[x] doing: this!
[x] thinking of: Eating steak...
[x] craving: Nick
[x] missing: Nick
[x] hating: My stomach

_______FAVORITES_______

[x] song: The Reason by Hoobastank
[x] radio station: JAMN 94.5
[x] tv show: Jeopardy
[x] channel: MTV,
[x] movie: But I'm A Cheerleader! *thankies Scottie*
[x] store: Hot Topic
[x] mall: Silver City Galleria
[x] hang out spot: Mall
[x] actor: Adam Sandler
[x] actress: Janeane Garafolo
[x] food: Chinese Food
[x] character from hidden leaf village: Is that Canadien eh?
[x] book: I have no clue...

_______LOVE_______

[x] love is: nice...
[x] love or lust: lust...
[x] best love song: You're The Only One" by Maria Mena
[x] is it possible to be in love more than one person @ the same time?: Yes, definitely
[x] when love hurts, you: cut yourself...I do...I don't reccomend it though...
[x] true or false: all you need is love: true
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight: Yes

x_______Male SPECIES_______x
(Or the Sex You're Attracted to)
((Or in my case, Sexes))

[x] turn ons: Nice smile, good hands, peircings, etc!
[x] turn offs: cocky, egotistical people, people who make fun of other people
[x] does your parent`s opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: I listen to their opinion, but it doesn't influence me.
[x] what kinda hair style?: I don't care...as long as you take care of it.
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: Fuck me when I ask for it.
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: anywhere...I'm a people magnet!
[x] are you the type of person to holla and ask for numbers?: Yes...considering I'd holla and ask for sex!

x________PICKY PICKY_______x

[x] Dog or cat : Cat
[x] Short or long hair: long
[x] Innie or outie: innie
[x] Sunshine or rain: rain
[x] Moon or sun: moon
[x] Basketball or football: basketball
[x] Righty or lefty: righty
[x] Hugs or kisses: sex!
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] Tv or radio: radio
[x] Starbucks or jamba juice:......Maui Wowie
[x] Mcdonalds or burger king: burger king
[x] Summer or winter: winter
[x] Written letters or e-mails: letters
[x] Playstation or nintendo: Playstation
[x] Disney or nickelodeon: Nickelodeon
[x] Car or motorcycle: car
[x] House party or club: Club!
[x] Sing or dance: DANCE!
[x] Freak or slow dance: Freak...definitely!
[x] Yahoo messenger or aim: AIM
[x] Google or ask jeeves?: google

x_______MISCELLANOUS_______x

[x] Can you swim?: not well.
[x] What's your most embarrassing moment?: when Aaron and Scottie kicked my booth back and the lady turned and stared at me...
[x] Whats under your bed?: countless pairs of slippers
[x] What are you scared of?: Bees,
[x] What is your greatest accomplishment?: Being clinically dead and coming back alive!
[x] What kinda roof is over your head?: there are different kinds?!
[x] Do you like tomatoes?: HELL YES! They make Ketchup...teehee!
[x] How many TVs in the house?: 4
[x] How many phones?: 4
[x] How many residents?: 4
[x] How many DVDs do you have?: 35
[x] Last dentist visit: I don't remember, I stopped going to Dr. Walsh, because he didn't give me novacaine...
[x] Last doctor visit: A week ago.
[x] Last phone call: This afternoon...when Kathryn called me...
[x] last IM : Jeremy

My best friend eh?

angelicpawn — 2004-07-03T01:07:00-05:00

Who will give you an orgasm? by leslie13
Name
Age
Virgin?
So, who will make you moan?	Your best friend.
How?	Just by standing there.
Will it be good?	mmm hmmm...:)

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Maybe It's Intuition...But Some Things You Just Don't Question...

angelicpawn — 2004-07-05T04:07:00-05:00

So yesterday was the Fourth of July...aka Independence Day. I had fun...I rocked out...like usual.

Nick came over and went down to the Cape with me. We hung out at Barbara's from around 12 til 4:30...just messing around, eating, joking, random shit...then we walked uptown. There was a play put on by the Trinity Repertory Theatre, in the Hatch Shell,um...I think it was "Two Gentlemen of Verona". It was a Shakespeare play. Well...let's just say that I didn't get to see the play. Nick and I laid on the grass and relaxed. And by relaxed..I mean relaxed. We didn't even make out or anything...we were just kissing and talking. We had fun. He was like...saying the raunchiest stuff to me...it was so so hott!

Anyways...after the play was over...or after we noticed everyone walking away..lol..We got up and Josh came running over to us. He said he was gonna watch the fireworks from uptown instead of at the house and that if we were gonna, then we should go back and okay it with the 'rent. So we walked all the way back and grabbed a soda while we were at it. Then we okayed it, and walked all the way back uptown. We settled at the benches in front of the Hatch Shell and waited for the fireworks to start. We walked around a little, cause we got bored, and Nick bought one of the Dora balloons on a stick for his litle sister, Cassie. I got a light-up pacifier necklace. It was so cool. I like little queer toys like that. So we sat down and talked and shit...then when the fireworks started, we were sitting, hands intertwined, it was so cute. So we watched the fireworks, and after they were over, Nick and I got up to walk back. We were walking for a little while, then we stopped and stood underneath this tree...in the darkness...and he turned to me and started kissing me, then he was like, "Kiss me for real Jess. Come on, it's a tradition." I was like, "I'd like to know whose tradition this is, cause I've never done it..." So then he was like.."It's ours...it's always tradition to kiss underneath the fireworks." So I was like, okay, so we kissed...really kissed. Then we walked back down town to Barbara's and it was time to leave. We were stuck on the Cape for hours because of traffic. The 'rent had to turn the heat on so the car wouldn't overheat because she has a Jucket olds. So Nick was complaining about the heat, so I took one of the towels we had in the car and draped it between the two front seats so the heat wouldn't blow directly on us. So...guess what else the towel is good for? Blocking the view of Nick and I, from our torso down, from the people in the front seat. Oh man..the ride home was stupendous! I love doing shit when there is the possibility, so close of us getting caught. It definitely was a turn-on. I won't say what I did, but let's just say that during the ride home, I felt like I knew the way Scottie felt like riding with Aaron.

So then I called Nick to talk to him, and find out if he had a good time last night like I did. I called and was like hey, and the first words out of his mouth were, " I had a lot of fun last night...it was great." Just from the way he said it, I knew he was only talking about the ride home. Oh man...I love him to death.

We had so much fun last night...at one point, he was talking about me moving in with him, and shit. It was so so so cool. Once, we saw this woman with her baby, and the baby was so cute, and I randomly remarked to Nick, "I love little babies!" So then he took my face in his hands and looked me straight in the eye and asked "Do you want one?" in the raunchiest voice, but serious. Man, I never had so much of a problem trying to stop myself from ripping the clothes off someobdy in public before that moment. I swear to god, I would have taken him back in the trees and made him scream! *Sigh* But, I didn't...I kept my manners with me like a good girl.

OvEr KaThRyN's

angelicpawn — 2004-07-12T12:07:00-05:00

Yeah...so I am over Kathryn's now...and Kathryn and Kristyn are arguing over where their nipples are and random cool stuff. Kristyn is excited because her birthday is Tuesday, the 13th.

So I talked to Scottie and we decided we didn't want to be in a fight. I guess I just got carried away defending Jason's right to call himself what he wanted. Brianna and Kristyn and Kathryn are watching E.R now. They're confused by what's happening...lol. That figures. They are...well...a few wires short...ahahaha. No, they are so cool. I love them. I guess a long time ago, that I was in a fight with the Fagans, but now I'm not. I was friends with Jackie last time I checked, Vickie doesn't mind me, and Brianna is friends with me and I'm not sure about Britney..I guess she is friends with me too...I haven't talked to her in a long time. But I have been here since Friday afternoon. I love hanging at Kathryn's house. I talked to Crisco tonight...and we had a conversation that went something like...

NameRemoved: I love Mike.
BetterThanDeana: and I love Nick
NameRemoved: I love Mike more
BetterThanDeana: I Love Nick MOST
BetterThanDeana: I WIN!
BetterThanDeana: :-P
NameRemoved: I LOVE MIKE x Infinity!!!!!!
BetterThanDeana: I LOVE NICK X INFINITY X INFINITY!
BetterThanDeana: I WIN!
BetterThanDeana: cause im better than deana!
NameRemoved: :-(
NameRemoved: lol
NameRemoved: good point
BetterThanDeana: lol
BetterThanDeana: i know
NameRemoved: hehe ok im off to bed
NameRemoved: lol
BetterThanDeana: NOOOOOOOOO
BetterThanDeana: I WIN!
BetterThanDeana: ahahahahaha
BetterThanDeana: ok
BetterThanDeana: nighty night....keep ya butthole tight!
BetterThanDeana: :-D
NameRemoved: haha
NameRemoved: i will
NameRemoved: cant say the same for aaron though
NameRemoved: ;-)
NameRemoved: lol
BetterThanDeana: lol
BetterThanDeana: lmao
BetterThanDeana: OMFG
BetterThanDeana: lmao
NameRemoved: ahaha
BetterThanDeana: lol
BetterThanDeana: ily waffles
BetterThanDeana: nighty night
NameRemoved: night
NameRemoved signed off at 12:08:14 AM.

Ahhh...my friends are so cool. I love them. Oh, by the way, BetterThanDeana is my actual screenname, because I am better than Deana...cause I WIN! Oh man...btw, if you want all my screennames...they are:

angelicpawn
BetterThanDeana
crazylimodriver6
NicksBabyMaker

and that's all. I am on Angelicpawn more than the others, although that is gonna change, because I'm going to be on BetterThanDeana the most because I am better than Deana...and everyone I have asked agrees with me.

On Crisco's Couch!

angelicpawn — 2004-07-18T03:07:00-05:00

Yeah...so it is the wee hours of Monday morning, and yesterday was mine and Nick's three month anniversary. I love him to death.

Ohmygosh...so much has gone on this weekend. Scottie, Aaron, and I made plans to go to P-town on Saturday morning and stay there the day to chill. I was supposed to go to Kristy's house Friday night to watch Queer As Folk with Aaron and Scottie. But I didn't, and I ended up talking to Mike until past one in the morning. I woke up at 8:00 Saturday morning, so I would be ready for when Aaron and Scottie came to pick me up at 9:30, the time Scott told me on Thursday night when we planned it. We ended up leaving my house at around 11. We drove for what seemed like days, and got to P-town at around 2:00. Scottie told me and Aaron about how he was woken up at 9 by his dad saying bullshit to his stepmother like "Oh, so the gay boy is going to gay city, huh?" right outside his door, when he thought Scottie was sleeping, and his dad was bitching and shit. We stopped at Starr Market before we left town and we each got an energy drink. Scott got one called No Fear and Aaron and I got a Sobe one. I thought it was good, but Aaron didn't like it. Scottie hated his. By the second hour in the car in 90's weather, I was about to puke all over Aaron's car. Around 2, we got to P-town. Earlier on the ride, Aaron had noticed his car battery light had started to light up when he would use the brake. So he was worried something was wrong with it. We parked, and Aaron tried to start his car and it wouldn't work, so we decided to leave it in the parking lot. We walked around P-town for about an hour and a half, just for a little bit, then we walked back to the car because Aaron was geting stressed out. The car miraculously started. We were all worried we wouldn't make it through the drive home with this car, so we stopped at a garage in Truro, called Sonny's. They looked around, cut some wires, and decided they didn't know what exactly was wrong with the car. We sat there until 9:30 at night. We called Steve (Aaron's best friend), and Nick (One of Steve's friends/coworkers, and also my boyfriend) at work at 6 and asked them to come get us. The first time they went by at around 9, they went right past us, and kept driving up the road past the gas station. Then, they finally ended up going around in a circle and coming back and I flagged them down. Then, we went back to P-town and walked around some more. Scottie and Aaron checked out some leather and porn stores, then we headed for home. We got back to Crisco/Aaron/Steve's house at 2:00 in the morning. What happened in the wee small hours of Sunday morning, and all day Sunday must wait for another day to be told. Maybe a bit later, but let's suffice to say right now...Sunday morning, when Nick told Steve that all him and I did that night was make out...he LIED! No...no sex...not yet...he was "scared" or so Steve told me...um...yeah...so...but it was F!U!N!

Accurate?....you tell me...

angelicpawn — 2004-07-18T03:07:00-05:00

On Crisco's Couch (continued)

angelicpawn — 2004-07-20T04:07:00-05:00

Yeah...so...

Brian called me this morning, he said he misses everyone...he's heading to Venice tomorrow, and he'll call again...

So...yeah...I bet no one wants to know what me and Nick did...I love it...so I'm not gonna tell...but I will say that on Sunday Me, Aaron and Scottie played a fun game...mwahaha...I am interviewing for CVS on next Monday, and Ashley's party is this Saturday..the 24th...I have to go get her something...

Blah...

angelicpawn — 2004-07-26T03:07:00-05:00

Yeah...so...I went to dinner last night with Aaron, Scottie, Kathryn, Theresa, Kathy, and Jenner. Poor Doug...We harassed him to no end. Kathryn said she wanted to rape Scottie's little sister, and she didn't know that his dad was behind the door. Hopefully, we will be going to P-town this weekend...Yes...without Nick...because Aaron and Scottie think my boyfriend is gay...which is so not cool...not to mention that it's not true either...and Scottie...if you ask me what color your eyes are again...I will punch you...it's just not funny anymore...but me and Aaron know that the retarded whorehouse still is and always will be hilarious!

Hope Dangles On A String...Like Slow Spinning Redemption...

angelicpawn — 2004-07-28T03:07:00-05:00

So...yeah...I am so bored...I called this lady Josie back at Days Inn, and she says she'll give me a call back...cause I should be hired within the week...so yeah..I'm gonna be a maid! How sexi...right? Yeah...I know...It's amazing how much more alone you can feel when you love someone and they don't talk to you...then if you don't love anyone and are really alone...I know it prolly doesn't make sense to you...but...yeah...it does to me...

I'm Blacker Than Michael Jackson!

angelicpawn — 2004-07-29T02:07:00-05:00

So...yeah...I went to the salon today. It is so cool to have an aunt who owns her own salon. She always does my hair. The mother got her glasses today. I got my hair done black...all black...now no one can make "Jess is blonde" jokes anymore...I love it! Aaron...you make me mad! Scottie called me today...and invited me to go to P-town with him and RW (aka Retarded Whorehouse...lmao) this weekend. He said he wasn't sure we were going, but if we were...I was invited. I wanna go...I hope we do...it is hella fun! I love Ptown.

So what if the guy I love loves men? STFU Aaron...lmao...you're gonna make me cry.

Mindsay Kleopto-ism! Thankies Crisco!

angelicpawn — 2004-07-29T02:07:00-05:00

Change the capitalized words to make it apply to you!

01. I have only kissed 11 men in my life.(Wait...do we count kissing men on other than their mouths?)
02. I HAVE read all the Harry Potter books
03. I'm not married.
04. I often dwell on MAKE-ME-MAD-TYPE things.
05. My ears are pierced, and I'd like to get more pierced.(more...other than my ears!)
06. I usually wear makeup.
07. When people are kind to me, I am kind. When people are mean to me, I am EVIL.
08. I love to read.
09. I barely ever go out in the sun.
10. I have a scar on THE SIDE OF MY RIBCAGE.(From my surgery)
11. I have not lived in a lot of places in the past six years.
12. I usually spend all my money withing seconds of getting it.
13. I have a pretty good idea of where I want to go to college.
14. I like MY HAIR.
15. I hurt myself often.
16. I'm HILARIOUSLY good with confrontation.
17. I'm open to many types of music. (Except country)
18. I have a lot of horrible memories.
19. I know what rocky mountain oysters are.
20. I dont go to church. (Going to church is against my religion!)
21. I've kissed by someone other than my family before.
22. I'll be graduating in 4 years! (High school -- The best 6 years of my life! Class of 08!
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I have a hard time not being sarcastic.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I become very attached.
27. I am a BISEXUAL.
28. I have a kissing fetish.
29. I have a few favorite movies that I know all the lines to.
30. I dont dress the same everyday.
31. I know what Mystery Science Theater 3000 is.
32. I SCREAM when I get extremely frustrated.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. My favorite season is WINTER.
36. I need to buy more clothes. (Okay...I dont need to...But I'd like to!)
37. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE to stay up all night.
38. I'm a dork.
39. I believe in extraterrestrial life.
40. My life is surprisingly dramatic for being so dull.
41. Few people really know me.
42. I like my hair.
43. I have a TV in my room.
44. I am not as passionate as I'd like to be about my BODY.
45. I have had chicken pox.
46.I don't have to be in a relationship to feel good about myself.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I have been depressed.
49. I do enjoy a good cup of ICED COFFEE.
50. I am extremely outgoing unless I feel like not being it. :)
51. I love MY BIRTHDAY.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I notice I'm outspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I knows enough about computers to take care of MYself.
56. I GOT SUSPENDED MORE THAN A DOZEN TIMES in middle school.
57. I make too many smartass remarks.
58. I sometimes feel alone.
59. I DO know what mercurial means.
60. I've contemplated suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I sometimes get jealous.
63. I love playing video games.
64. I like most genres of music.
65. I can squish ants without remorse.
66. I'm a meat eater.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am always either too forgiving or not forgiving enough.
70. I have very good sense of direction.
71. I enjoy school. (Like I said, best 6 years of my life!)
72. I don't know how to play any instruments.
73. I sometimes feel inadequate.
74. I love to draw. (I just suck at it).
75. I love any shade of BLUE, and some shades of GREEN.
76. I can sew, but almost never do.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.(yet)
78. I need to start wearing UNDERWEAR. (Go commando!)lol
79. Politics are interesting, but I can't keep track.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I'd rather not be complimented, because I wont believe you.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. I have a CD player and I ALWAYS use it.
84. There isn't much I WON'T eat on a pizza.
85. I watch MTV.
86. I hate getting SICK.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the GUITAR.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I am a virgin.
91. My nose is normal.
92. I am short. (5'5")
93. I act my age. (LIES!)
94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
95. I believe in reincarnation
96. I love music.
97. I have a boyfriend. (So what if he likes Steve more than me?!)
98. I'm a pack rat.
99. I tend to think with my VAGINA/PENIS more than my head.
100. I LOVE ice cream.

I Am A Girl Anachronism!

angelicpawn — 2004-07-30T12:07:00-05:00

So I finally talked to Nick last night. I got so upset that I cried myself to sleep. I'll tell you why...

First, I called him at 7 and he said he couldn't talk, and he'd call me back in a little while. I said okay, and since he's been known to not call me when he says he will, I didn't expect him to call. Sure enough, 8 came and went, then 9, and by 9:30 I was mad and I was about to go cut myself some more. So I went into my room at quarter til 10. I laid down and cried. At 10, I got a phone call and surprisingly enough, it was Nick. He talked to me for five minutes and he seemed distracted, then he said he couldn't really talk to me because his sister had come into the room, so we sat there in silence for ten more minutes. Then he kept making comments about how he was winning, and blah blah blah, he was gonna kill this guy, and he was a sorcerer, all kinds of shit, and it dawned on me that he was playing Nintendo. Then his step-dad came downstairs where he was, and I heard him in the back ground saying to choose between the phone and the Nintendo. Then, guess what, Nick asked me if he could call me back. So, I of course told him he could, and I went into my room and cut and cried. At 10:30 he amazingly called me back. He heard me crying, and he asked me what was wrong. I told him that I was upset because I had been trying to call him for two weeks and every time he said he would call me back, he never did. Then, when he actually decided to call me back, he had to play Nintendo while he was on the phone with me, because...what...I am not interesting enough? Then, he had the balls to say to me "Oh, Deana felt that way too!" I wanted to hang up on him. The conversation got a little better, and with mention of Deana only one more time after that, it was the only conversation where he mentioned her less than 5 times. He told me he wanted me to come over Saturday night after he got out of work, from, like, 6 until 10. I dunno...I want to, but I don't know. I love him, but it seems like he doesn't even care about me. It upsets the hell out of me. Oh yeah, and I FUCKING HATE DEANA! And, Nick told me that he and Steve went up to Tiverton to hang out with Aaron at his grandfather's house and they were going to go swimming, but then it started raining, and Aaron and Steve got mad at each other for some reason. I don't know the whole story, but that's what Nick told me. And when I asked him when this was, he had the balls to say, "Oh, it was the most recent time I blew you off..." Another felt-like-hanging-up time right there, let me tell you! Anyways, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I can't go to Ptown this weekend, even if Scottie and Aaron are going, but maybe next weekend, if I'm not working. I wanna go to Nick's Saturday night, but I don't even know what I'm going to do.

SHHH....Brian Is Sleeping...

angelicpawn — 2004-07-30T11:07:00-05:00

I am at Brian's housee on the cape right now, and he fell asleep a few minutes ago...Crisco thinks I should whip-cream him, but he just looks so peaceful and serene lying there...what a cute little chinese boy...teehee. I am not going to Nick's tomorrow night, because my mother...aka the BITCH! said that I can't go, and worst of all, I can't even call him, because I am at Brian's. I miss him, but maybe it is time for me to blow him off for once...it hurts me like hell to do this, but it's not like I could help it...If I could call him and tell him that I couldn't go, then I would..but I can't...and it hurts me so so so bad...I really miss him, and I love him, so I don't want to hurt him...ARGH...conflict sucks my penis...and NOT in a good way either!

Brian Kills Kittens

angelicpawn — 2004-07-31T07:07:00-05:00

I am so mad at myself. I said yes, to Brian, that I would go to his house, and that ruined me going to Nick's. I went to Brian's house Friday night, assuming that I would be back Saturday morning, and that I would go to Nick's Saturday night...now this afternoon...I got into a screaming match with my mom, and now I'm not talking to her, and Nick will prolly never talk to me again...and I have no way to secretly get to Nick's and I AM SO MAD! I love him, and I'm sorry I can't go.....

MAD

angelicpawn — 2004-07-31T08:07:00-05:00

I AM MAD!

Wouldn't Life Be Easier?

angelicpawn — 2004-07-31T08:07:00-05:00

Coin operated boy
sitting on the shelf, he is just a toy
but I turn him on and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why I want a coin operated boy

made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long-lasting
who could ever ever ask for more
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
I will never leave my bedroom
I will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend....

coin operated boy
all the other real ones that I destroy
cannot hold a candle to my new boy and I'll
never let him go and I'll never be alone
and I'll never be alone, go (x12)
not with my coin operated boy

this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me from my plastic fantasy
I didnt think so but im still convinceable
will you persist even after I bet you
a billion dollars that I'll never love you
will you persist even after I kiss you
goodbye for the last time
will you keep on trying to prove it?
I'm dying to lose it...im losing...my confidence
I want it
I want you
I want a coin operated boy.

and if I had a star to wish on
for my life I cant imagine
any flesh and blood would be his match
I can even fuck him in the ass

coin operated boy
he may not be real experienced with girls
but I know he feels like a boy should feel
isnt that the point that is why I want a
coin operated boy
with his pretty coin operated voice
saying that he loves me that hes thinking of me
straight and to the point
that is why I want
a coin operated boy.

It's Cold, It Feels Like Independence Day And I Can't Break Away From This Parade....

angelicpawn — 2004-08-01T03:08:00-05:00

It's really cold here...and I hope I freeze to death.

Gotta Love That Family Guy!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-01T04:08:00-05:00

[After Stewie gets taken into an ethnically diverse foster family]
Indian boy: Stewie, would you like to learn how to wrap a turban?
Stewie: Why don't you teach it to the Chinese girl? Or perhaps she can learn after her people invade your country.
Indian boy: Yee, would your people really do this?
Stewie: Try and stop them. And try and stop Pablo's people from using drug money to buy arms from Li's countrymen who in turn sells them to Ura's people so that they can ethnically cleanse the rest of this nauseatingly diverse grab bag of genetic party favors you call a family. So now you all understand, yes? You all hate each other!
[Children start crying]

The Gay Kids Are Going To Gay City... - Scott's Dad

angelicpawn — 2004-08-03T04:08:00-05:00

Yeah...so we are going to Ptown this weekend. I love it...so far, it's going to be Steve, Jenner, Aaron, Scottie, Kathryn?, Brian, Mike?, Myself, and Corie?. Of course, the question marks mean those people are speculatively coming. Corie wants to, but her parents haven't called from Vermont yet, and Mike wants to but he doesn't know where he will be this weekend, and Kathryn wants to, but we all know her dad might decide to go to Dunkin Donuts instead. I can't wait...because Ptown is so fucking awesome...it's like the best place...ever. We are going to go into the Porno shops and buy dildos...(is it dildoes or dildos?)Anyway...We are gonna buy dildos and porno galore...and we are going to see if Aaron will vouch for us so Kathryn and I can get our belly buttons done...YAY! PTOWN ROCKS!

R Is For Relationships

angelicpawn — 2004-08-03T06:08:00-05:00

I don't criticize your choice to remain relationship-less because you find that relationships are not for you. I don't claim that you're lying every time you say you don't want to be in a relationship. When I say I love him, I'm not lying. I believe him when he says he loves me. Every time you say something negative about our relationship, it hurts me, and it puts doubts into my head. Every time you say he's gay, it makes me wonder if he really is, and I know he's not. Yeah...and I will cry.

CVS, Bitches!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-04T05:08:00-05:00

Guess who's going to work at CVS tomorrow, bitches?! That's right...your personal God, me! I will be working at the Middleborough CVS, from 8am - 4:30 pm, next to Stop & Shop, and Papa Gino's, on West Grove Street. Stop by and slip me and undercover hello!

**So how am I setting myself up for this stuff? I wouldn't think that my friends would say stuff they know would kinda hurt...but then again...I guess honesty is important, even if you know it could tear your friends' hearts out.

Thank You For Choosing Middleborough CVS, This Is Jessica Speaking, How May I Help You?

angelicpawn — 2004-08-05T05:08:00-05:00

Alright...so...today was my first day at CVS. I worked from 8-4:30. The hardest thing was the pain in my feet. I am cool at working the cash register, and I can develop the pictures, that's kinda easy, I think. The parts I don't like are the reshopping, and the repricing. Course, that's just like me, cause I'd like to stand around in one spot all day.lol Crystal came in today. She didn't seem too thrilled to see me working there, but that's prolly because she knows that she shouldn't have kept me on the phone for a half and hour playing games with her voice and pissing me off when I called Kathryn, and she was over their house. I was using Jenn's and Maggie's numbers all day, and at the end of the day, my manager gave me my own temporary register number and password, until my real number comes back. I am so tired. I have to wear this baby blue polo shirt, for my uniform (don't worry, I have to wear pants too, they just don't supply them!). I went out and had to buy a pair of black pants yesterday because I'm not allowed to wear jeans/denim, and that's all I have. So, now I have one pair of black pants. I am working from 8-4:30 again tomorrow, and then from 2-10 on Saturday. I am so tired. Aaron postponed the trip to Ptown til next weekend, so we can all go. I can't wait. My feet hurt so bad, and I didn't eat all day, so I think I am going to go pig out....on...hmm...we have potatoes, so I think I'll eat them, and maybe a bowl of cereal, and a mustard sandwhich, just cause I'm cool...

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angelicpawn — 2004-08-05T06:08:00-05:00

Oh Baby! Yeah...I have boobs the size of watermelons...tehe...unfortunately...my boyfriend doesn't appreciate them...grrr

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angelicpawn — 2004-08-05T07:08:00-05:00

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To link it (the actual code):

I am a 80's MASTER, you bitches!

Like I Said, I'm A Mindsay Klepto!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-07T11:08:00-05:00

Thirteen random things you like:

01) My Boyfriend (cause he's not gay)
02) Coke....the drink..
03) The Dresden Dolls
04) Straightening Irons
05) Mindsay...cause I'm a dork
06) Garnier Fructisse shampoo
07) Hot Topic
08) Digital Watches
09) Girls
10) Keychains from Spencer's
11) FIRE! (I'm A Pyro...)
12) Law & Order (Criminal Intent)
13) Boys

Twelve movies:
01) The Rocky Horror Picture Show
02) But I'm A Cheerleader
04) The Labyrinth
05) Gremlins
06) Save The Last Dance
07) The Goonies
08) Nip/Tuck (Season 1) ((So it's a TV show...sue me!))
09) The Muppets Go the The Metropolitan Museum
10) Free Willy
11) James And The Giant Peach
12) Watching Scott Watch ~Xena~ *ReTaRdEd WhOrEhOuSe*

Eleven good bands/artists: (in no order)
01) D12
02) Dresden Dolls
03) Yellowcard
04) Dir En Grey
05) Malice Mizer
06) Eminem
07) 50 Cent
08) Jay-Z
09) Coheed and Cambria
10) Aaliyah
11) Lynard Skynard

Ten good friends (IN NO ORDER, BIZNITCHES!):
01) Scott
02) Aaron
03) Kathryn/Kristy/Rake(RAUL!)/Jenn
04) Mike H
05) Brian
06) Kristy
07) Steve
08) Nick (cause he's n-o-t gay)
09) SoMeTiMeS-my brother...even though he's stupid...and has boobs!
10) Anoyone else who would get mad at me for forgetting them or who I love anyways (Nate(micr0h4rd)-I <3 U!lol, Kara (crashthefiend), Jess, Jenner (cause I wanna rape her..right Aaron?!lmao))

Nine things about you ... physically:
01) MY BOOBS ARE THE SIZE OF WATERMELONS!
02) I am ...*sniffle* sad to say...short...
03) I don't tan a lot...so I'm gothicly pale
04) My eyes change color (I don't wear contacts)
05) I have black hair
06) I have more scars than you know
07) I have a big mouth (ask Nick!)
08) I have nice hair
09) I am 5' 3 and a 1/2"

Eight favorite foods/drinks:
01) Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream
02) Wild Cherry Pepsi
03) Vanilla COke
04) *Freedom* Fries (tehee)
05) Lorenzo's Food
06) KETCHUP (on EVERYTHING!)
07) Powerade
08) Salad w/ Honey Dijon dressing

Seven things you wear daily:
01) 6 Earrings
02) 5 Rings
03) Watch
04) My Dolphin Necklace (Nick(WHO ISN'T GAY)) gave it t'me)
05) Hair Clips
06) My Watch - Brian Gave it to me!
07) My inhaler (in my pocket)

Six things that annoy you:
01) Asthma...GRRRR!
02) not knowing my father
03) My Mother
04) Heterophobes
05) Homophobes
06) clowns (THEY PISS ME OFF)

Five things you touch everyday:
01) My clothes
02) The mouse (NO..not double-clicking the mouse Scottie!)
03) My jewelry
04) The remote/phone
05) My Hair

Four shows you watch:
01) Simple Life
02) Summerland
03) Growing Up Gotti (BEST SHOW EVER!)
04) Law & Order (Criminal Intent)

Three celebrities you find attractive:
01) Aaron Lawrence (he's a celebrity cause he works SO hard...:p right Aaron?
02) Angelina Jolie
03) Tony Hawk

Two people that you always want in your life:
01) KathrynBrianAaronScottieKristyMikeH (I swear that's just one person!)
02) My Boyfriend...(cause he is n.o.t. gay

One person you could spend the rest of your life with:
01) Nick (my boyfriend...cause he's NOT gay)

Thankies Scott...I'll try..Though I feel Like Shit...Call Me And Make Me Feel Better...!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-08T01:08:00-05:00

Yeah...so it's one 1:30 in the morning early on Sunday morning, and I got home from work at 10, which is closing. I had to go to the doctor's after I got out of work yesterday(Friday) because I felt like shit. I got to the Dr.'s office, and I had a 102.5 fever. I got home, and fell asleep at 5, and slept all through until this morning(Saturday) at 8. I felt kinda okay...cause the world seems promising when you first wake up, but by 4:00, I was ready to kill myself. I felt okay because my feet didn't hurt, but my head, my back, and my throat did. My throat still hurts now, and ~*~*DAMN KRISTY FOR HER SABOTAGES! I got so scared!*~*~ but...I am in so much pain, and my shift manager Amy is supposed to call me tomorrow and tell me if I'm working this week. I seriously hope I work every other day...cause while I still feel like shit...that's all I can handle...if they're all going to be 8 hour days like the past three were. And I just found out today that Billy works in Papa Gino's next to CVS, because I got a salad there for lunch...and that cutie made it for me! What a guy...and I heard someone call him William...teehee!

no subject

angelicpawn — 2004-08-08T01:08:00-05:00

I'm gonna go puke now...and pass out...totally not joking...I feel like I'm gonna die...I am....I miss Nick...and I love him...I feel sick

Scottie - The Reason For Dead Kittens Everywhere

angelicpawn — 2004-08-08T12:08:00-05:00

I'm feeling a little bit better...but not that good. It's just my throat. I called Amy, my shift supervisor, and she said that I am not on the schedule this week, so I told her if anyone wants time off, to tell them to call me, cause I'm free. I just got off of the phone with Scott...and he said he's going to breakfast...at 12 in the afternoon...well...whatever floats your boat. I am supposed to read his blog, and he told me about what he did, that had everyone in an uproar...HILARIOUS! Sorry I missed it...anyways...I am free and bored this week...so call me...anyone...

You Ordered A Large Cheese Pizza? Snicker, Snicker click

angelicpawn — 2004-08-08T09:08:00-05:00

Can't wait to go to PTown this Saturday, and Miller is going! I'll prolly hang out with "Mr. Jizz-All-Over-Hitler's-face" this week...lmao...cause he's hott like butter! What's the dilly yo?

You Ordered Large Cheese Pizza, Small Pepperoni?

angelicpawn — 2004-08-09T09:08:00-05:00

So I just got off the phone with Aaron...he's gonna go look at a couple cars. He suggested a minivan...I think he should get one, because he said TV's come standard in them, so we can all watch the ReTaRdEd WhOrEhOuSe episode of Xena, or But I'm A Cheerleader all the way to Ptown.lol. I just woke up...like 10 minutes ago, because someone called my house and hung up when I picked up. I hate that.

Aaron Says I Smell Like Dried Semen!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-10T01:08:00-05:00

Wel...Aaron is supposed to call me back in a few minutes...he's at work and we just took an IQ test together. It came back, like 122 or something...cause he steals my brainpower. He says that he will marrry my big tits in melting hott butter. We'll prolly hang tonite.

*What I don't understand is when someone tells you something and then tells you not to tell anyone else because they're not goung to tell anyone but you, why is it that they go and tell other people? I hope you didn't care that people know about last night...because you told everyone. And now, everyone knows. And it's because you told them, not me!

Chips Won't Make Me Feel Better Tonight, Aaron!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-10T11:08:00-05:00

I am in such a bad mood. First off, we all know what the little boys were doing in Steve's room...and that was both before and after Scott decided to take something I told him to keep between us, and make fun of my boyfriend, whom I DO love. You can believe I'm lying all you want, but I do love him, and I honestly don't see how you can think that making fun of him will have absolutely no effect on me whatsoever. It does, because when he gets hurt, then I get hurt. And the worst part is, when he got hurt and told us to leave before anything else was said, and I was upset because he meant me too. And I was upset for the fact that he would rather stay at Steve's house alone with Kristy, than go with Steve, Aaron, and Scott to bring me home. And I do think that the comment that Aaron made on the way out of the house about what a nice way to treat his girlfriend, I think it was justified. I love him, and you know it makes me feel like shit when you make fun of him. And hopefully I won't still be mad this Saturday, because then you won't go, but maybe you'll just have to deal with it, until I can get used to the fact that I can't listen to anything you say to me, and I have to get used to the fact that you don't care if something you says hurts someone.

The Gay Kids Are Going To Gay City!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-11T09:08:00-05:00

So I talked to Mike today, and he's definitely going to Ptown with us this weekend. I talked to Fran, and she said that I can pick up my paycheck on Friday. Mike told me that Saturday, which is the 14th, is like, a day with no tax...so I'll get to spend more money in Ptown than I originally would have, so that's cool. It's going to be: Brian, Mike, Kathryn, Miller, Scottie, Aaron, and Steve. I can't wait...it's going to be hilariously fun. It's carnival week up there, too. I seriously can't wait. Hopefully, I can find someone who will pierce my bellybutton, or something. I'm gonna have over $100, so you know I am definitely hitting up the porn stores. Aaron said he'd get us all chocolate penises. I love it...that would be so hott! ((Like Butter!))

More Stuff You Didn't Need To Know!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-11T10:08:00-05:00

Put an x next to the ones that are true :

[x] stolen something?
[x] lied to your lover?
[x] lied to your friends?
[x] kissed the same sex?.
[ ] cheated on your lover?
[x] been in a fist fight?
[x] had a crush online?
[ ] did anything sexual in public?
[x] gotten drunk?
[x] smoked pot?
[x] bought an illegal drug?
[ ] got it up the butt?
[x] been in love?
[x] made yourself throw up on purpose?
[x] had someone tell you they like you and not show it?
[x] have someone tell you they love you and prove themself wrong?
[ ] backstabbed a friend?
[x] had a friend backstab you?
[x] liked someone just for looks?
[x] liked someone just for personality?
[x] jumped and screamed through a scary movie?
[ ] pee'd on yourself?
[x] been in the principal's office?
[x] laughed so hard you pissed yourself?
[ ] thrown up in front of people?
[ ] threw up on someone?
[x] spilled a drink at a restaurant?
[x] downloaded porn?
[x] looked through a porn magazine?
[x] read sex tips in fashion magazines? (Even though I hardly need them!)
[ ] shot up heroin?
[ ] snorted coke?
[x] taken pills?
[x] regretted something?
[x] liked someone who wasn't single?
[x] kissed someone who wasn't single?
[x] liked your friend's mate?
[x] been to a psychologist?
[ ] been to a dermatologist?
[x] had a blood test?
[x] had an infection?
[x] had the flu?
[x] broken a bone?
[x] sprained a muscle
[x] lied to your parents?
[x] snuck out at night?
[ ] snuck someone in at night? (Wanna be the first?)
[ ] got caught?
[x] been to a concert?
[ ] been to a club underage?
[x] been obsessed with someone? Not stalkerish obsessed though!
[x] had someone become obsessed over you?
[x] questioned your faith?
[ ] ever had an orgy? fully clothed 4sum hahaahaha good times
[x] ever cut yourself?
[x] cried alone?
[x] cried on someone's shoulders?
[x] tried commiting suicide?
[x] thought about commiting suicide?
[x] burned yourself purposly?
[x] been to a church?
[x] said a prayer?
[x] been angry at God?
[x] felt depressed? It’s Lakeville…what else is there to do?!
[x] felt used?
[x] been out of state?
[ ] to Europe?
[ ] out of the country?
[ ] been to an island?
[x] been beaten by your parents?
[x] had someone very close to you die?
[x] had someone you know die?
[x] got hit with a bottle over the head?
[x] been taken advantage of in any way when you were drunk?
[x] had your boyfriend/girlfriend yell and or embaress you in public?
[x] been slapped by the oposite sex?
[x] been punched by the oposite sex?
[x] hit the opposite sex?
[ ] killed someone?
[x] ever eaten pumpkin pie?
[x] celebrated Halloween?
[x] not celebrated halloween?
[x] had your heart broken?
[x] had someone from the opposite sex become infatuated with you?
[ ] been fisted?
[x] had a surprise party?
[x] got a birthday gift from a boyfriend/girlfriend?
[x] got a birthday gift from a friend?
[x] talked about sex with the opposite sex?
[x] talked about sex with the same sex?
[x] believe in pre-marital sex?
[ ] do not believe in pre marital sex?
[x] want to get married?
[x] want to have kids?
[x] want to get drunk right now?
[x] want to smoke pot right now?
[x] want to get wasted right now?
[ ] wanted to model?
[x] wanted to be a lawyer?
[x] wanted to be a doctor?
[x] wanted to be an actress?
[ ] wanted to be a business owner?
[x] wanted to be a photographer?
[ ] had a craving for sushi?
[x] had a craving for chocolate?
[x] starved yourself?
[x] stopped eating, unintentionally?
[ ] ate a worm?
[ ] swallowed a fly?
[x] held hands with your friend of the same sex in public?
[x] held hands with a friend in general?
[ ] lead someone on, purposely?
[x] been lead on?
[ ] used someone?
[x] truly hated someone?
[x] disliked someone?
[x] been a hypocrite to someone?
[x] been friends with hypocrites?

It Seems Like I Can Finally Rest My Head On Something Real...I Like The Way That Feels...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-12T03:08:00-05:00

I can't wait until this weekend. It's gonna be me, Kathryn, Mike, Brian?, Miller, Steve, Aaron, and Scott. It's going to be so much fun. I bet Kathryn and me will buy out all the porn stores in Ptown. Sorry folks...if you were planning to go to Ptown and buy porn...we will buy it all first. LMAO... Then we have to go to Burger Queen. Just cause Aaron wants to...cause we were gonna last time...but we never got to go. I have to go cause I am bored...and yeah...I am bored...oh yeah...and I caught Aaron's bat! He was on the phone with me the other night, when a bat flew into my room, and he told me to catch it for him, but I couldn't. Today, I went out and my mother was spraying the hose into the cracks of the chimney, and a bat flew out and I caught it for Aaron. Hehe...I hope he likes it. It will be hott ((Like Butter!!))

True Life: I'm A Retarded Whore!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-12T10:08:00-05:00

Do you ever watch those shows on MTV, the True Life shows? I love them. Some of them make me cry. Especially the ones that seem a little too real, the ones that I can relate to.

I can't wait to go to Ptown. It's gonna be Me, Brian, Kathryn, Mike, Scott, Aaron, Miller, and Steve. It's gonna be freaking hilarious. Every time I hear myself talking about it, it reminds me of that Anti-drug commercial...you know...the one where there are these two girls driving in the car, and this one girl is all like, "OMG...I can't wait to go to this party...I just need to blow off some steam...this last week has been hard...and you know Jocelyn? She's gonna be there." Freaking hilarious!

I wanna go see AVP some time. For all the non-informed kids...that's Alien Vs. Predator. I'm a big predator fan...I liked the Governator before he was the Governator.lol. When he stuck to what he knew and did movies...granted...some of them weren't so good...but...hell...he was better at acting than politics. Maybe it's time for a switch. Maybe Bush should go star in a couple movies...and he'll pull the stick out of his ass. Yeah...I know...you thought I wasn't going to be like all the holier-than-thou bloggers and post my political opinions. But hey...I figure they only come to me once in a while, so why not post 'em when I get 'em?

PeNis

angelicpawn — 2004-08-13T12:08:00-05:00

Sorry...just felt like saying...penis...cause I can.

The Gay Kids Have Conquered Gay City!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-15T02:08:00-05:00

So I just got back from Ptown...it started shitty...and ended with shit...oddly enough. First, Brian couldn't go. Then, Kathryn says she can't go. Then...Nick can't go. I was ripshit! I was so so mad. But, we decided to go anyways. Mike, Steve, Me, Scott, and Aaron piled into Steve's car, and went. Well...first, Scott had to have his game of Smash Bros. Of course. Then, when we finally got on the road, we had to turn back, because Aaron forgot his wallet. But, once we finally got underway, we got stuck in traffic. We got to Ptown at around 7:30. I just got home 10 minutes ago. We had fun...but I am too tired to talk.

Unbrreakable...What, You Though They Call Me Mr. Glass?

angelicpawn — 2004-08-16T02:08:00-05:00

Bored

Work In 2 Hours...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-16T02:08:00-05:00

So...I have to go to work in two hours...I'm working from 5-10...which is closing. I got my employee discount card in the mail on Saturday. Yeah...me and Aaron...we're gonna start a business. That is, if he can tear himself away from TeamMates...cause it was such a GOOD movie, right?!lmao. Ptown was awesome...I am mastering my knife skills...so watch out everyone...I am crazy and I have a knife!lol. I haven't seen Nick since last week, when I went over Aaron's. He was supposed to go to Ptown with us, but he wasn't allowed to. Whatever, he missed out...along with Kathryn and Brian. But I wasn't planning on doing the same stuff with Kathryn and Brian as I was with Nick...so he double missed out. Fucking Scott told my mother about Nick...and now my mom is all being a bitch about it...every time we get in an argument, guess what she is bound to bring up? The fact that my friends make fun of me and think that my boyfriend is gay. Thanks Scottie...you did a good job of being an asshole. I know you strive to be the best...You are.

Hope Dangles On A String...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-17T07:08:00-05:00

When I got to work on Monday, my manager told me that I have to work Saturday from 1-10. I wanna see Nick. I haven't seen him since he went over Steve's, like two weeks ago.

I got hurt today. I was taking tater tots out of the oven, and it was still turned on, and I leaned over the oven, and I got burned because my necklace started heating up, and it burned me. It's nice to know I'm still blonde on the inside, right?

All This Time You Were Pretending, So Much For My Happy Ending...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-19T01:08:00-05:00

So...I went to work yesterday. So what if I am the "new girl"? Does that mean that everyone else has the right to boss me around and make me do the grunt work that they don't feel like doing? I hate doing facing and reshops, but that's all I have been doing for the past two days. If anyone doesn't feel like doing something, they tell me to do it. It kinda pisses me off.

~Anyways...I told Kathryn that I got her some anal beads in Ptown, like she's always talking about.lol. She told me that Brianna Fagan is over AGAIN, and that Jon Deneault slept over her house. I suppose he's a cool kid, but I just tend to assume that someone who relentlessly teased me and made fun of me for 2 years isn't a nice person. Maybe, hopefully, he's changed. Maybe he has, and that's why Brianna is so infatuated with him. I wanna hang out with Kathryn soon. It seems like I've forsaken her. Msybe it's the other way around, and she's forsaken me. All I know is that we haven't seen each other in a long time, and we are so overdue for another crazy kickass sleepover.

~* Random hilariousness*~
I woke up at, like 5 am to go pee. When I was walking into the bathroom, my grandmother came stomping down the stairs and around the corner. She gave the cat the evil eye, and she asked me to put a bag of laundry in the bathroom next to the waher. When I came out, she told me that the cat had gone upstairs and gotten on top of her while she was sleeping and peed all over her. I went into my room and laughed myself to sleep. That's too funny!

I've Been Deprived Of The Best Ultra Sex...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-19T07:08:00-05:00

So...yeah...I am so bored. Kathryn came over a lil while ago to get her straightener that I borrowed, and when she came, I gave her the anal beads that I got for her. Crystal came. She's kinda weird. I think with her being so young, and hanging out with Kathryn and Kristyn and Jen, that her mind is somehow warped. I know it seems weird, but I can't wait for school to start.

Heh...Click It Bitches...You Know What'll Happen!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-19T08:08:00-05:00

http://www.pornstarguru.com/p/486424/1.html

Ultrasex...Not Ultra Sex...Okay Nate? :p

angelicpawn — 2004-08-20T04:08:00-05:00

Sooooooo bored. I was supposed to go to Kara's party today, but my mother, being the bitch that she is, decided to say I couldn't go, which fucking pisses me off. Kara Petruzzo is one of the coolest kids I know, so not being able to be there for her birthday pisses me off royally.

Fill Out The Survey Bitches!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-20T04:08:00-05:00

I will personally stab you guys (Brian, Scott, Crisco, Aaron) if you don't fill this out for me...post it in a reply...or I will beat you up! hehe.

~*WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:*~
» I died from natural causes:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized (like that hasn't happened...):
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Family (Mrs. Jess's Mom!):

WOULD YOU:
» Be my friend?:
» Keep a secret if I told you one?:
» Hold my hand?:
» Take a bullet for me?:
» Keep in touch?:
» Try and solve my problems?:
» Love me?:
» Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
» Lied to make me feel better?:
» Wanted to kiss me?:
» Wanted to kill me?:
» Broke my heart?:
» Kept something important from me?:
» Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

~~**~~::.And More.::~~**~~

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna put this on your blog to see what I say about you?

Remember That Thing You Didn't Want Me To Talk About, Scottie?

angelicpawn — 2004-08-20T05:08:00-05:00

Seriously...I am going to flip out right now. I hate my family. I go out and work my ass off, and I have shit to do, but what happens when I take a moment to relax? What happens when I don't jump to take out the garbage, or when I leave a fucking spoon in the sink? It's all my fault, and I am told that I am lazy, and that I'm worthless. What a happy family I come from. No one even knows how much this pisses me off. My friends all adore my mother, because she's "the cool mom". She's only cool in front of my friends. But when no one's there, she's a bitch!

On Monday..I am Waiting...By Tuesday...I Am Fading...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-22T05:08:00-05:00

So I got back from work a little while ago, and my little brother..aka Estrogen Boy...has been on the computer since then. I just now kicked him off, so that I could come on and post my wonderful entry in my wonderful bloggie! No, I'm not high, I'm just in a sort of okay-ish mood. You know what just occured to me as I was checking my email and read Crisco's reply to my survey? It occured (occurred?) to me that I love Kristy...she and I have been friends since the 8/9th grade-ish, and we've gotten closer since then. She's my number 1 TeStIcLe ThIgH! We have so many inside jokes...Princess Bojangles...You"ve got crabs on the beach...oh man...I lovers Kristy!

In other news...Yeh...I am only working today, and then tomorrow, from 4:30-10, and that's it for the week. That sucks, even though I got time and a half for today, it's not a lot of hours. Oh well.

Work In 3 Hours...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-23T01:08:00-05:00

Okay, bitches, how many times do I have to tell you all to come visit me at work? It's the CVS on West Grove Street in Middleborough, (that's Massachusetts for all you lame-os out there). I'll be the one wearing the "Jessica" nametag....only because that's my name. Mention my blog, and I'll give you my sneaky sneaky employee discount, because that's how I am. But make sure you come to me, because no one else will know what in the blazing hell you're talking about.

So...amazingly, Kathryn called me back this morning. I was quite surprised that she even called me back. I miss hanging with her. Kathryn Gudmundsson is my favorite penis!

Tap On My Window, Knock On My Door, I Wanna Make You Feel Beautiful...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-24T12:08:00-05:00

So...I checked my answering machine when I got home from work last night, and I found a message thst went something like this: "Hi everyone, Towelie here. Just wanted to say hello. Don't forget a towel! Guess I'll catch you all later." Stupid Jason, and his stupidness. What a dork. Only he would leave a message on my machine posing as a South Park Character. Oh, and speaking of work yesterday, it sucked. They had me cleaning the store, and facing the aisle enders, and doing reshops, all the stuff that I'm not too fond of. Although, reshops aren't too bad. Facing sucks for me though. And they had me cleaning a lot. **Get ready for the sentence of the day that isn't as naughty as it sounds.** We got a new manager, and he had me on my knees most of the time I was at work. I had to scrub down the bottom racks and the bottoms of all the stands in the makeup aisle. Grrr. Not fun. In other news, around 7-ish, I went over to Papa Gino's and I saw, Guess who? Satanithan...aka Ryanne Condon, my favorite rocker.lol. Anyways, she made my salad, guess it's a good thing that I'm friends with her, or else I would have had a spit dressing...YuM!lmao. Anyway, I saw her, and then I had to go back over to work, and I didn't get a chance to eat until I got home at 10-ish. By then, let me tell you, the bread stick I got was very unpleasant. And the bread stick was almost the best part of my salad. I was slightly upset. *sigh* So...what's been up with you?

I'm A WoRm ErAsEr?

angelicpawn — 2004-08-24T12:08:00-05:00

All I Have...All I Have Is Insane...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-25T01:08:00-05:00

So...you should know, Scottie, that I am trying to be able to go to your party. I told Kathryn she should go, but she doesn't want to for the fact that Katie and Kara prolly might be there, and she thinks they hate her. I don't think they do, because there is nothing to hate bout her. I have to find out if Nick is having a party. Ooooh...but I gotta go for now, because I have a shrink appointment...yay!

Hope Dangles On A String...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-25T08:08:00-05:00

I swear if I don't get out of here, I am going to slowly die. The only times I can get out of the damn house id doctor's appointments, and when I go to work. This sucks. I've started doing the thing Scott doesn't want me to talk about. And with my mother being the way she is, I don't think I will stop.

Brian Is Sexy...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-25T08:08:00-05:00

I love you Brian...cause I'm on the phone with you.hehe. Sneaky Sneaky...

Finally...Peace Talks Are In Progress...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-26T03:08:00-05:00

So...I finally had it out with my mother. We decided that, even though she has in the past only tried to make my life a living hell(only I agreed to that one) that we would set up rules and abide by them. We agreed that I would, for the rest of the summer, be in bed by midnight, night-trips notwithstanding, and be awake and out of my room on or before 10am. Weekends are the same until school starts. Then, once school starts, then my bedtime will be 11pm, and weekends will be on a per-occassion basis. I came up with that. When I say per occassion basis, it makes me sound smart. I love it. But she also said that if I want to go out for the rest of the summer, it is not an automatic no, that I can ask, but if I bug her, then it's a no, but that's cool. I can deal with that. That means I will prolly be able to go to Scottie's party! YAY!

I Will Suck Your Penis...right now!

angelicpawn — 2004-08-26T04:08:00-05:00

I am? a bisexual girl
I want? to touch boobs (kept that from the guy I klepto'd this from.hehe)
I have? a boyfriend
I wish? I could see Nick every day
I hate? bitches
I miss? Monique
I fear? staying alive forever
I hear? the air conditioner..it's old and loud
I search? for porn on the internet
I wonder? whose penis will be in my mouth next
I regret? being born
I love? Nick...and my friends
I ache? I don't ache
I always? masturbate...according to Scottie
I am not? a cheerleader, preppy bitch
I dance? in the car (not like Scott dances, though.lol)
I sing? really loud
I cry? when I'm pissed
I am not always? coherent
I write? poetry
I win? ALL THE FUCKING TIME!
I lose? not often
I confuse? a hell of a lot of people.
I should? learn to fuck with people.

Three things you are often complimented for?
1. My blondeness
2. My mom's coolness (chaaaa...right...)
3. My tits

You get embarrassed when? Scott tries to pull my shirt off
What upsets you? when people (SCOTTIE) stick their fingers in my nose
You like to cook? not as much as Brian does though
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone? yes.
You set your watch a few minutes ahead? yes...cause I am a geek
You bite your fingernails? No, cause I just got them done.
You believe in love? yes...NiCk!

~~Who is ... ?~~
The prettiest person of the opposite sex you know? Aaron...except he's not 'pretty'...he's hott (like butter!))
The weirdest person you know? Scott
The loudest person you know? Scott
Your close friends? love me and my huge tits.
The person that knows the most about you? all my friends
Most boring teacher? Hartley...but me, Kathryn, and Scottie are gonna rock her world next year!

~~What is ... ?~~
Your most overused phrase on IM? dude
Last image/thought you go to sleep with? Nick
Your best feature? my huge tits (that Aaron will marry!)lol
Inside joke? Brian(meat substitute?)Aaron(retarded whorehouse, I wanna rape Jenner,right?,whats the dillio? like butter, my huge tits, word warriors!)Kathryn(RATCHACHA, cockblock, anal beads, your mom's dildos)Kristy(testicle thigh!,not a nun.lol)

~~Do you ... ?~~
Take a shower everyday? Yes
Have a (any) crush (es)? sure
Think you've been in love? I know I have
Want to get married? yes
Have any tattoos/where? yes...soon to be the base of my back
Piercing/where? ears, soon to be tongue
Get along with your parents? I hate my mother and I don't know my father.

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF ...
Ryan? Place...Corie's brother, and the one who wrecked my mailbox with Broadbent.lol
Rob? Sorel...EWWW..sorry Kristy...it had to be said.
Stephanie? Hill...hahahahahahahahahaha
Heather? Miranda.EWWWW...EATSHIT AND DIE BITCH!
Aaron? St. Laurent...hott like butter...
Amy? Deneault...I miss you
Eve? the rapper.
Jon? my buddy from Greenfield..Kourtney's ex...
Alex? Copeland...Scott's enemy...and a cool kid...he killed my cat!lol
Justin? from Queer As Folk
Ricky? and Rashad from Middleborough...whew..HOTT BOYS
Jack? off

The Last::Last Car Ride:: Monday...to work Last Kiss:: 3 weeks.. Last Good Cry

angelicpawn — 2004-08-26T04:08:00-05:00

Last Car Ride:: Monday...to work
Last Kiss:: 3 weeks..
Last Good Cry:: a day
Last Library Book checked out:: 3...they're overdue...
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: White Chicks
Last Book Read:: the three I got from the library
Last Movie Rented:: Thirteen, it's still in my dvd player..BEST MOVIE
Last Cuss Word Uttered:: fucker
Last Beverage Drank:: lemonade
Last Food Consumed:: saltines
Last Crush:: :X
Last Phone Call:: from Brian last night
Last TV Show Watched:: Jeopardy
Last Time Showered:: last night
Last Shoes Worn:: sandals
Last CD Played:: Old Skool Nelly
Last Item Bought:: salad, at Papa Ginos
Last Download:: Dresden Dolls
Last Annoyance:: brother
Last Disappointment:: School starts Sept. 7th!OH NO!
Last Soda Drank:: Ginger Ale
Last Thing Written:: Poetry
Last Key Used:: backspace
Last Word Spoken:: tomatoes.
Last Sleep:: last night
Last IM:: yesterday
Last Weird Encounter:: seeing the drunk guy in Ptown
Last Ice Cream Eaten:: Chocolate chip cookie dough
Last Time Wanting To Die:: last night
Last Time In Love:: currently
Last Time Hugged:: couple weeks ago
Last Time Scolded:: 5 seconds ago
Last Time Resentful:: yesterday
Last Chair Sat In:: The chair I'm sitting in now
Last Lipstick Used:: I use gloss mostly
Last Underwear Worn:: haha granny panties...I win
Last Bra Worn:: green ports bra
Last Webpage Visited:: this one

Undercover Agent...

angelicpawn — 2004-08-30T05:08:00-05:00

I have to make this quick cause I am not supposed to be on the computer...hehe...but you know me, I don't follow rules. So let's get started. I got my tattoo yesterday afternoon. It's an 8 and a half inch long tribal across my lower back. I am so grateful to Adam for doing it for me. He told me he's been doing his own tattoos since he was 13. That's hott. Anyways, I went to Scottie's party, or gathering,lol, and it was a lot of fun. Eh..nothing else is really up...so I'll post at a later time, loyal fans.

I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right, I swear I'm right...

angelicpawn — 2004-09-03T09:09:00-05:00

Okay, so the ban has been lifted for 15 minutes, so I can come on and tell you wonderful people how pathetic I am because I can't wait for school to start. I am only excited about school because I can't wait to get the fuck out of my house. These people are driving me crazy!

~Anyways~

I prolly won't be on till after school starts, so I just wanted to say I'll see you all in school. And Nate, I will see you in room 209...

Grr...Bored

angelicpawn — 2004-09-10T09:09:45-05:00

I have to work tomorrow morning at 8 am. I don't know if it is humanly possible for me to wake up that early on a weekend. Meh...I'll try...Scottie and Aaron called me on 3-way and then the bitches hung up on me. Yeah...that's right...BiTcHeS! Shawn likes Aaron...hahaha...I love that...it's hilarious. I'm gonna get a Brazilian monkey and name it Jerichi .lmao @ Kathryn. Apponequet should die.

El Quiz-0

angelicpawn — 2004-09-10T09:09:53-05:00

|| Part One||
Using band names, spell out your name:

Journey
Evanesance
Slipknot
Sex Pistols
Insane Clown Posse
Chemical Brothers
Aerosmith

What songs make you cry?: Hold On by Good Charlotte...
What song makes you happy?: Faggot by MSI, Coin Operated Boy by Dresden Dolls

||Part Two||

a b o u t . y o u
[ full name ]: Jessica Lynn Christensen
[ birthdate ]: June 7th, 1988
[ location ]: Brockton, Ma
[ sexual preference ]: Bisexual
[ height ]: 5'3.5"
[ weight ]: um...how about no...?
[ hair color ]: black, but my roots are coming back.
[ hair type ]: um...dry?
[ skin color ]: CrAcKa!
[ eye color ]: blue
[ piercings ]: ears, soon to be nose and tongue
[ tattoos ]: tribal on my lower back
[ fitted shirts ]: eh?

i n t e r n e t
[ do you use any instant messengers ]: yesh
[ if so, which ones ]: AIM
[ about how many hours a day do you spend online ]: 2-3 hours
[ do you have a digital camera ]: nope
[ if so, do you post pictures of yourself online ]: If I had one I would.

m u s i c
[ do you play any instruments ]: no
[ favorite genres of music ]: every kind except country...*shudder*
[ favorite bands ]: Blink-182, Good Charlotte, Linkin Park, Christina Milian, Dresden Dolls, MSI, Petey Pablo, D12, Eminem
[ do you go to concerts and/or shows ]: sometimes
[ what is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show]: dunno
[ what is the least you've ever spent ]: dunno
[ do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny ]: yes
[ do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to ]: ...yesh...Scottie got me listening to Britney...*shudder*

w o r d . a s s o c i a t i o n
[ blue ]: balls?
[ camera ]: digital
[ boys ]: PENISES!...
[ pretty ]: ugly
[ pants ]: tight jeans
[ music ]: rock
[ God ]: no
[ sweater ]: Charlie Brown?
[ live journal ]: ugh
[ mtv ]: music
[ soft ]: hair
[ hard ]: PENIS!
[ heart ]: PENIS!
[ star ]: celebrity
[ sex ]: please?

r i g h t . n o w
[ pants youre wearing ]: Jeans
[ shirt youre wearing ]: One that says, "Beauty is only a light-switch away..."
[ underwear ]: yes.
[ music listening to ]: Faggot by MSI
[ taste in your mouth ]: ketchup
[ weather ]: cooling down some
[ tired ]: a little
[ happy ]: no...Scottie vaginally wounded me
[ depressed ]: ...yes

d o . y o u
[ get motion sickness ]: nope
[ have a bad habit/trait ]: yeah
[ get along with the parents ]: no
[ like to drive ]: yes
[ want to get married ]: yes, but with my luck, Nick will invite Deana to the wedding...
[ want to have kids ]: yes...billions
[ sing in the shower ]: not really...no
[ dance ]: alllllll the time

w h i c h . i s . w o r s e
[ physical pain/emotional pain ]: emotional
[ blink-182/good charlotte ]: I plead the fifth
[ being deaf/being blind ]: being blind is worse
[ being bored/rushing around because you have too much to do ]: boredom
[ losing your dominant leg/losing your dominant arm ]: Losing your arm is worse

f a v o r i t e s
[ tv show ]: Jack and Bobby, Surreal Life, Summerland
[ movie ]: House of 1000 Corpses, Save The Last Dance, Where The Heart Is, But I'm A Cheerleader
[ conditioner ]: Garnier Fructisse
[ shampoo ]: Garnier Fructisse
[ hair product ]: hair spray
[ book ]: my journal
[ magazine ]: Rolling Stone, Cosmopolitan
[ non-alcoholic beverage ]: Coca Cola
[ alcoholic beverage ]: Corkscrew
[ song ]: Faggot by MSI
[ color ]: black
[ smell ]: woodshop
[ icecream ]: brownie batter blizzard from DQ

h a v e . y o u
[ broke the law ]: yes
[ ran away from home ]: not yet.
[ snuck out of the house ]: yes
[ gone skinny dipping ]: um... Scottie almost made me kinda naked yesterday.
[ made a prank phone call ]: yeah
[ used parents credit card ]: If she had one, I'd use it
[ skipped school ]: ALL THE TIME!
[ fell asleep in shower/bath ]: yeah
[ been in a school play ]: yes
[ let a friend cry on your shoulder ]: yes
[ kissed a boy ]: of course!
[ how many ]: like...11?
[ kissed a girl ]: YES!...kRiSty!lol
[ how many ] around 5
[ slept with someone ]: not yet!

l o v e
[ boyfriend ]: Nick!
[ girlfriend ]: yes, but not current
[ sexuality ]: bisexual
[ are you a virgin ]: yes
[ been in love ]: so much it hurts
[ do you believe there's a difference between love and lust? ]: yeah
[ is it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all ]: no
[ had a hard time getting over someone ]: only if you're a stalker!
[ been hurt ]: ...yes
[ cheated ]: NO!
[ turn ons ]: everything...I'm permanently horny!
[ turn offs ]: I'll get back to you...
[ favorite place to be touched ]: my back and shoulders.

r a n d o m
[ do you have a job ]: yes...CVS in Middleborough, BITCHES!
[ your cd player has in it right now ]: House of 1000 Corpses soundtrack
[ if you were a crayon what color would you be ]: black
[ who makes you happiest ]: Scottie, Aaron, Kristy
[ next cd you plan to buy ]: Dresden Dolls and MSI
[ how often do you bathe ]: every day
[ who do you consider close friends ]: Nick, Aaron, Scottie, Kathryn, Brian, Kristy, Ryanne, Kristyn, Nate

w h e n / w h a t . w a s . t h e . l a s t
[ timed you cried ]: Saturday
[ time you received a letter ]: Court papers, last week
[ you received e-mail ]: today
[ thing you purchased ]: dinner last night
[ tv program you watched ]: news
[ movie you have seen ]: White Chicks

y o u r . t h o u g h t s . o n
[ abortion ]: I'm Pro-choice
[ gay relationships ]: I'm Pro-Gay rights, too!
[ pre-marital sex ]: Fine with me, as long as it's with me!
[ teenage smoking ]: fine
[ war ]: a necessary evil
[ the spice girls ]: I used to LOVVVVVVVVE them...omg
[ your dreams ]: heavily kinky!

Vaginally Wounded....

angelicpawn — 2004-09-13T05:09:02-05:00

So, I hung with Scottie and Aaron yesterday. I went to Nick's party at around one, and boy...let me tell you, he has some preeeeeettty unique friends. I knew Caitlin...from the 'dolph.lol. Yeah, no one understands that except me and her. I met...Stuart...and he claims he goes to our school and is 16, but I'm not sure I agree. He just looks so...so...so...freshman-ly. He turns 17 a day after me. That makes him special. Who else did I meet...JESSE! Gosh...what a cool kid. I seen him at lunch some. He was there with Alex Matthews and this chick Ellen. I didn't know either of them. I saw Harry...who is in some of my classes, and I met this kid Jimmy, who I like to call Bob! Of course James and Aaron, aka Jesus, were there. James told us about how when that guy got stabbed in the mall Saturday night, that he was standing next to him, and he got his blood spattered all over his clothes.eeek. I was so pissed, because not even 15 minutes into the party at Nick's...who walks in, but the beastmaster...aka HAVE RESPECT! aka Deana. Grrr...She was giving me dirty looks all day, but I never did anything to the bitch. Um...I met these girls Julie and Rachael, and Rachael is going out with Julie's brother, Steve. And OMG, Aaron offered to hook Kristyn up with Steve Norton last night. I laughed. They would be a cute couple. We saw Kristina Bowlby and Caitlin Rubenacker when we went to McDonald's last night. Sorry guys...it was us who left the trash all over the table. Hmm...it is actually 5:30 in the morning right now, so I have to go get ready for another boring school day. OOOOH! I have woodshop block period! Woot! Go me!

Oh yeah...and just so you know, Aaron, Scottie, Kathryn and Kristyn and I all went swimming last night, and thanks to Scottie and Aaron, I am again...vaginally wounded. There's no way to get around saying that. Scottie has this rubber torpedo toy that he plays with and shoots at people in the pool, and he just happened to enjoy using it...on me! AHHHHH! GRRRR! It hurted, it did.

no subject

angelicpawn — 2004-09-13T08:09:41-05:00

So...I have to work tomorrow, from 4-8. I have History with Demello block period tomorrow. It should be fun, with Ethan Wager, Brianna Fagan, Erica Humphreys, Matt Gauouette, and this random hyper kid Zack. It'll be interesting. Mr. Rice didn't make anyone cry today, but then again, Andrew wasn't in class. I figured out the hilarious kid's name that sits next to me though, the one that Adam Fasci slapped in the face,lol. It's Andrew Fitzgerald. He's such an awesome kid. Then there's the kid who claimed he was "On the rock" all period.lmfao. Kristy - I love Stuart, too! I just don't see him in school...if I do I will tackle him in the middle of the hall and give him a big smoochie! I hate school. I won't be there much longer, as, alas, I am going to join Jobcorp at near the end of this year.

Dun Dun Dun.......Vagii...

angelicpawn — 2004-09-16T03:09:32-05:00

So, I am just about ready to go to work. I have to be there for 4 o'clock, so I'll prolly be there by 3:30. I calculated my late fees for the overdue library books I have and it comes to $22 if I return them today. Fat chance. Whatever. Anyways, I am going to go and have Beth cash my check when I get to work so she can bring me back some money so I can go next door and maybe actually eat something. And I can pick up the pictures that I dropped off, a random roll of film that I had laying around. I am going to fill out the paperwork for my phone next week. I should be getting it in the mail in 3-6 weeks, that's what the letter from the radio station said. It's a VOX 8610 color flip phone. It is so awesome. Anyways, I have to go get dressed for work...and then I'm gonna leave, so...yeah...

Does Anyone Know A Close Bridge I Can Jump Off Of?

angelicpawn — 2004-09-20T10:09:27-05:00

I am so pissed. My boyfriend is being a cunt. I am going to go do the thing Scottie doesn't like.

AFI...duh duh duh...I WIN KERRI!

angelicpawn — 2004-09-24T08:09:21-05:00

AFI
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You like my favorite band. They are deep and make you think, and can even move people to tears. You probably like The Cure as well. Thanks for being so cool and picking the best band ever. Never lose your taste in music. Oh yes and if you do indeed like AFI, wish Davey good luck with his recovery.

What band are you? (With pictures!)

Kristy's Couch Hath Been Twice Defiled...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-03T10:10:04-05:00

I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I have a quiz in earth science, and I have to stay after to make up a density lab. I just got back from work, where it had been just me and Darryl since 5. I don't mind. OOOOH! News...Kristy's couch has been defiled again! I slept over Kristy's last night...and guess who else was there? NICK! Steve made us watch Fahrenheit 9/11. Well...he didn't "make" me watch it...cause I kinda really wanted to watch it anyways...well...until Nick came over and sat down next to me and started touching me, and I couldn't concentrate on the movie...lmao...we had fun...let's just leave it at that. I didn't sleep at all. Now I know something that drives Nick wild. God...he was so hot...all moaning and shit...man...I am practically creaming my pants just remembering it. jk...that's...ew.

This Is My Loyalty...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-04T08:10:53-05:00

God...why do things get so fucked up? I love you both, and I'm not afraid to mention names. Scottie, I love you. Brian, I love you. I've been friends with you, Brian, since the 6th grade. We've had good times...and...bad times. I've always been there for you, and you've always been there for me. This is completely your choice. If you want to dissolve years of friendship because of a misunderstanding, then it is completely up to you. I just want you to know I love you, and I will never hold anything against you. As for you saying that I am taking Scottie's side, I am not...read over the conversation. The whole thing I was saying was that I am not taking sides. That was my point. I guess by me saying that I wasn't going to take sides, you assumed that I was taking his. That is wrong. This is what I was trying to avoid...taking sides. I love you both so much. You've both been friends with me for forever. What I said to you was just that...that I can't stand to listen to you two talk about each other the way you do, and if you wanna talk shit about each other so badly, then just do it away from me. For the single reason that I DO NOT want to choose sides, because I can't, and I won't.

Again...I want you to know that if you don't want to be friends, that is your choice. I would never hold anything against.

lil Raver Boy88: hey
AngelicPawn: hey
lil Raver Boy88: what's up
lil Raver Boy88: ?
AngelicPawn: nm...you?
lil Raver Boy88: nadda
lil Raver Boy88: what was up the other day
lil Raver Boy88: you smell like poop?
AngelicPawn: ???
AngelicPawn: omfg
AngelicPawn: it was today...and it was scottie on my sn
lil Raver Boy88: fucking faggot that kid is
AngelicPawn: im friends with both of you...so I won't accept either of you talking about the other one to me...just letting you know right now
lil Raver Boy88: I already called him it, so I'm not talking about him behind his back
AngelicPawn: that's not the point...I won't listen to it
lil Raver Boy88: what ever
AngelicPawn: whatever nothing...I'm just letting you know...I said the same thing to him
lil Raver Boy88: anywayz, how was work?
AngelicPawn: it was okay
lil Raver Boy88: wait
lil Raver Boy88: so he was saying other shit about me?
AngelicPawn: no...just the regular shit...like you say hes a faggot...and he says his bit...
lil Raver Boy88: like what?
AngelicPawn: like nothing...I'm not gonna be a part of this rumor/hate thing...so I'm not gonna say anything about it...you say shit about him...and he says shit about you...leave it at that.
lil Raver Boy88: no, I'd like to know what he says
AngelicPawn: no...I'm not gonna do this shit any more
lil Raver Boy88: what ever, seeings as how you're always going to take his side, screw you too
AngelicPawn: WTF BRIAN!
lil Raver Boy88: lil Raver Boy88 is no longer signed on.

In An Effort To Help You Know Mre Better...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-06T03:10:11-05:00

Ask me four questions, no more, no less. These questions can be about anything...from my favorite color to my sexual preference. Ask away...

In An Effort To Help You Know Me Better...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-06T03:10:29-05:00

Ask me four questions, no more, no less. These questions can be about anything...from my favorite color to my sexual preference. Ask away...

no subject

angelicpawn — 2004-10-11T06:10:45-05:00

Come on PENISES...read the last post and ask me 4 questions...or I'll really stalk you ...

Quiz...Klepto'd From Fyreph...hehe..... Win!

angelicpawn — 2004-10-14T06:10:20-05:00

Three Things...

THAT SCARE ME:
1. Micheal Jackson - Sorry...I had to keep it...it's just way too scary not to be number 1.

2. loneliness

3. Living too long

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. Kathryn

2. Doug Howard

3. Jen Catalano

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. Nick

2. My cat, Mogwai

3. My friends

THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. Homophobes

2. Bush - The president

3. Racists

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. Why I wasn't born with a body that matches my personality.

2. Why guys lie about their penis size

3. Why love is so hard

THREE THINGS ON THE DESK:
1. money

2. A bra (wtf...okay...So I throw things...hehe...)

3. cds, floppies...

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW
1. Sniffling - allergies

2. Eating Tums - DAMN YOU APPONEQUET TACOS!

3. Typing...cause I love me some quizzes

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Fuck Nick...you know...my boyfriend...who won't have sex because he says he doesn't want to have "an accident"...which could very well be prevented...and isn't it the girl who doesn't want to have sex?...me...I'm like a fucking horny machine!

2. Own a hummer

3. Perfect a perfect blowjob technique...which will then be named for me.

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. Well...you can ask Nick about one...it involves my lack of a gag reflex

2. Type faster than the average person

3. Use big words that astound and confuse my friends

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:

1. Funny

2. "Special"

3. indiscriminating

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1. Go out..no hoorahs left...lmao

2. Get drunk easily

3. I can't stand my boss at work...

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. DANE COOK - OMFG - I love you Tyreph...DANE COOK ROCKS MY SOCKS!

2. The 9/11 Remix of Heaven by DJ Sammy

3. Listen to/watch SOUTH PARK!

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
1. Country music

2. Your brother (lol)

3. The presidential debate - YAWN!

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. Hey Fucker

2. Cunt!

3. ARGHHHHH!

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. KETCHUP - *drool*

2. chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream

3. Steak

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. Chinese - So I can know what they're saying about me at the nail place hehe

2. How to get my boyfriend to have sex

3. How to make every drink ever invented

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1. Soda...any kind..as long as its carbonated

2. Orange juice

3. SLUSHIES *drools*

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
1. Punky Brewster

2. CareBears

3. Alf

THREE RANDOM THINGS THAT YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME:
1. I think that 60% of Apponequet is fuckable (keep in mind I am bisexual)

2. I loooooooooooove ketchup!

3. Nip/Tuck is one of my favvvvorite shows.

ATTENTION APPONQUET-ERS!

angelicpawn — 2004-10-14T07:10:08-05:00

Let's have everyone who goes to Apponequet meet in the rotunda Monday! Right when the buses let off...cause I talk to you guys way too fucking much not to know wtf you look like...cause chances are my loud self has talked to you before...SO LET'S DO IT!

Work...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-17T10:10:02-05:00

I have to go to work in a half hour. From 11-2. How retarded is that? I went to King Richard's Faire yesterday...I'll tell you about it later...and all you Apponequet people...don't forget...ROTUNDA ON MONDAY BEFORE HOMEROOM!

Kevin Loves Tom...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-18T01:10:14-05:00

So I met Ben today...and in other news...Cory...my friend Cory...the one who I used to call on the phone and talk to for hours at a time...has decided to be a douche bag to me. FOR NO REASON EITHER! Whatever...I dropped my camera today in study...and I think that the film got exposed...because it popped open...that sucks. Study was fuckin hilarious though. Shawn and I were talking...then Gasconi assigned us seats...cause she won't let us talk...when we don't even get that loud...trust me...I'VE HEARD LOUD...AND THAT WASN'T IT...anyways...I sat next to Val...and on my other side, a couple seats down, was Zach Brown and Tom. Val made a sign that siad "Kevin Loves Tom)...and then everyone started cracking up. I put it on the front of my bag, and everyone looked at it and laughed...Kevin was being a weirdo though...I think it's cause everyone knows he fingered Jess in that Study...and he thinks I'm the one who told everyone...but I'm not. Whatever...anyways...I have to go pick up my pictures today...and I think if Ryanne's not in too much of a rush...then maybe I'll catch a ride with her...I don't know...but I'm in study...so I'm gonna go random surf some more....

Nick didn't remember our 6 month...and the Yankees lost...life sucks...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-20T12:10:24-05:00

So...yeah...Like the title says...it was mine and Nick's 6 month anniversary yesterday, or the 18th rather...and no one remembered but me...hmm...and the Yankees just lost tonight...oh...yeah...and Nate called me a necrophiliac...that's...um...hott...yeah. I wonder who he thinks I'm fucking. It sure ain't Nick...cause Kevin said Nick said that we aren't having sex because I said no...and I don't want to...give me a fucking break...I've asked him to have sex with me and he is the one who said no...I'll go have sex with Amy Rebeiro then. Oh yeah...and Alex Matthews is my wife.

Read The Quiz...Cause I'm Mad At Scott...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-20T10:10:17-05:00

PAST
[ + ]first grade teacher's name: Mrs. Cunningham

[ + ]last phrase you said: Bye

[ + ]last thing you laughed at: my brother freaking out about a bug

[ + ]last time you cried: when Scott called

PRESENT
[ + ]what's in your cd player: mixed CD

[ + ]what color socks are you wearing: none
[ + ]what's under your bed: 7 pairs of slippers that I never wear...

[ + ]what time did you wake up today: 5:30am

[ + ]current hair: bun with headband

[ + ]current clothes: jeans and orange t-shirt
[ + ]current annoyance: Scott

[ + ]current smell: mint ice cream
[ + ]current longing: to move away with Nick...and be together without people trying to fuck us over...

[ + ]current desktop picture: Grand Canyon
[ + ]current book: The Philosophical Strangler

[ + ]current hate: Scott

[ + ]story behind your username: I think we all have someone moving us around, like we are all chess pieces...so, thus...pawn of the angels...Angelicpawn

[ + ]current favorite article of clothing: my sweatshirt
[ + ]favorite physical feature on a guy: hands
[ + ]line from the last thing you wrote to someone: I don't write much

[ + ]I am happiest when: I'm with those I love : my friends

[ + ]I feel lonely when: Nick says/does something stupid...
[ + ]if you could live anywhere in the world, where: with Nick...anywhere
[ + ]famous person you have met: A-Train, Ruthie(Real World)

[ + ]do you have any regrets: everyday
[ + ]sex or love: love...because Nick won't have sex :(
[ + ]favorite coffee: French Vanilla
[ + ]favorite smell: Nick
[ + ]what makes you mad: Scottie

[ + ]favorite way to waste time: sleeping, TV,internet

[ + ]what is your best quality: I can always make someone laugh...

[ + ]are you currently in love/lust: both...

[ + ]any bad habits: believing Scottie
[ + ]do you find it hard to trust people: not really...but after Scott...I should learn to pick who I trust better
[ + ]last thing you bought yourself: fabric for my halloween costume

[ + ]bath or shower: both

[ + ]favorite season: winter
[ + ]favorite color: black
[ + ]favorite flavor: watermelon
[ + ]favorite time of day: none

[ + ]gold or silver: silver
[ + ]any secret crushes: I love everyone

FASHION
[ + ]do you wear a watch: small blue one from Brian

[ + ]favorite stores: Hot Topic, Spencer's

[ + ]how big is your closet? I don't have one
[ + ]ever spend more then $200 in a store?: yes

FRIENDS
[ + ]do your friends know everything about you: most know most...but that will change...I don't trust anyone anymore...

[ + ]what do they tend to be like: tonight...he was a prick

[ + ]can they count on you: they know they can

LAST
[ + ]last book you read: Schindler's List
[ + ]last movie you saw: Fahrenheit 9/11

[ + ]last movie you saw on the big screen: Resident Evil 2

[ + ]last show you watched on tv: Lost, then Mythbusters, then Yanks v. Red Sox
[ + ]last song you heard: Venga Boys

[ + ]last thing you had to drink: Gatorade
[ + ]last thing you ate: KFC

[ + ]last time you showered: yesterday
[ + ]last time you smiled: this morning

[ + ]last time you laughed: yesterday

[ + ]last person you hugged: Nick
[ + ]last person you talked to online: ScarletBegonias
[ + ]last person you talked to on the phone: Kristy

DO YOU
[ + ]sleep with stuffed animals: Care Bears!

[ + ]have a dream that keeps coming back: yes
[ + ]play an instrument: No
[ + ]believe there is life on other planets: yes

[ + ]read the newspaper: yes...Middleborough Gazette

[ + ]believe in miracles: Yes

[ + ]consider yourself tolerant: yes...

[ + ]consider police a friend or foe: both...

[ + ]like the taste of alcohol: yes...i love alcohol...

[ + ]believe in astrology: yes
[ + ]believe in magic: yes
[ + ]go to church: no

[ + ]have any secrets: yes
[ + ]have any pets: Mogwai..my cat

[ + ]go or plan to attend college: no
[ + ]talk to strangers: allllllll the time

[ + ]have any piercings: ears, nose

[ + ]hate yourself: all the time, but I mostly hate others
[ + ]wish on stars: yes
[ + ]like your handwriting: Yes

[ + ]believe in santa: yes!

[ + ]believe in the Easter bunny: no
[ + ]believe in the tooth fairy: yes!

[ + ]trust others easily: yes...though Scott has shown me I shouldn't

[ + ]sing in the shower: no

HAVE YOU EVER
[ + ]ever been so drunk you blacked out: no

[ + ]missed school because it was raining: no

[ + ]put a body part on fire for amusement: yes

[ + ]been hurt emotionally: yes...thanks Scott
[ + ]kept a secret from everyone: yes
[ + ]had an imaginary friend: still do

[ + ]cried during a movie: yes...

[ + ]had a crush on a teacher: absolutely not
[ + ]ever thought an animated character was hot?: nope

[ + ]been on stage: yes
[ + ]cut your hair: Yes...who hasn't?

FAVORITES
[ + ]shampoo: Garnier Fructisse

[ + ]soap: Lever 2000
[ + ]color: black...
[ + ]day/night: night

[ + ]summer/winter: winter

[ + ]lace or satin: satin
[ + ]cartoon characters: Tom & Jerry
[ + ]food: pizza, ice cream
[ + ]advert: ?
[ + ]movie: Rocky Horror Picture Show, Where The Heart Is, But I'm a Cheerleader, Fahrenheit 9/11.

[ + ]ice cream: chocolate chip cookie dough

[ + ]subject: study
[ + ]'normal' drink: Gatorade

[ + ]persons to talk to online: anyone

RIGHT NOW
[ + ]wearing: the same as the last time you asked...

[ + ]hair is: the same as the last time you asked...

[ + ]i'm feeling: like shit...thanks Scott
[ + ]eating: nothing...it's 10 at night...

[ + ]drinking: see above...
[ + ]thinking about: why he does what he does...
[ + ]listening to: my brother watching the discovery channel

IN THE LAST 24 HRS
[ + ]cried: yes
[ + ]cleaned your room: no

[ + ]done laundry: yes
[ + ]drove a car: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
[ + ]yourself: no

[ + ]your friends: most

[ + ]santa claus: yes

[ + ]tooth fairy: yes

[ + ]destiny/fate: yes

[ + ]ghosts: yes

[ + ]ufo's: yes

FRIENDS AND LIFE
[ + ]do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nick/Amy (though I'm having threesomes with Brittany and Kristy)
[ + ]like anyone?: Yes...so much it hurts
[ + ]who's the loudest: Me
[ + ]who's the shyest: Kristy
[ + ]who's the weirdest: Scott

[ + ]who do you go to for advice: Kristy...and Aaron...and others who I won't anymore

[ + ]who do you cry to?: Kristy...Aaron...and the one who makes me cry...Scott

[ + ]what's the best feeling in the world?: being in love

[ + ]worst feeling: not being loved

FAVORITES
[ + ]animal: any baby animals

[ + ]color: the same as the last time you asked...

[ + ]ice cream: the same as the last time you asked...

[ + ]sport: softball, soccer, tennis

[ + ]type of music: anything but country
[ + ]band: Dresden Dolls, Eminem, MSI, ICP
[ + ]korn song: Falling Away From Me

[ + ]singer: Eminem

[ + ]book:
[ + ]tv show: Lost, Veronica Mars, The O.C, Without A Trace

Hahaha...I only Klepto From Those I Love...

angelicpawn — 2004-10-24T09:10:25-05:00

_______Your Life_______
[x] They call me: Jess, Jessica, 'That's Hott'
[x] My first breath of air: June 7th, 1988
[x] Status: I'm with Nick..although I think I'll have to go elsewhere for the sex HE WON'T GIVE ME!
[x] Best friends: Kathryn Gudmundsson, Jen Catalano, Gerard...um...something...Amy Rebeiro, Brian Way, Scott Mobark, Aaron St Laurent, Sarah (UH OH OREO!) Young, Nate *tell me if I spelled it right* Olivera(who thinks I'm a necrophiliac), Nick Miller, Kristy Norton (Testicle Thigh!), Steve Norton, Ryanne Condon *owner of It's On Custom T-shirt Deisgns*, Meghan Condon, Andy Fitzgerald, Doug Howard, Adam Fasci, Ashley Souza, Nicole Hopp, Billy Lackey, Jason Miller, Eric Shagus, many others...

_______Rewind_______
[x] Most memorable memory: well isn’t every memory memorable? If it wasn’t it wouldn’t be a memory…heh I don’t know Gotta agree with Jen
[x] Worst: *shrugs*
[x] First word uttered: penis? I prolly said that first...heh

[x] First best friends: Scott Mobark...although he was my first crush...it was first grade... gimme a break...

_______Love_______
[x] Love is: Everything!
[x] First love: Scott...(1st Grade!)
[x] Love or lust: Love
[x] Possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time: Yes
[x] When love hurts, you: cut

[x] True or false- all you need is love: True
[x] Such thing as love at first sight: Yeah
[x] In love right now: Yes...I know I am...

[x] Number of times have you been in love: Twice...

_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] Turn-ons: The easier question to answer is turn-offs...
[x] Does it matter what your parent's opinion on your boyfriend is: Not at all...although apparently his matter to him...

[x] Kind of hair style: only thing...NO MULLETS!
[x] The sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you: Give me sex when I want it...
[x] Where do you go to meet new people: everywhere...I met a million and a half Saturday night at the Haunted House...
[x] Are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers: YES! THAT'S HOTT!

_______Picky-Picky_______
[x] Dog or cat: Cat...I have 6

[x] Short or long hair: IDC

[x] Sunshine or rain: RAIN, definitely
[x] Moon or sun: moon
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] Summer or winter: Winter...
[x] Written letters or e-mails: E-mails
[x] House party or club: House Party
[x] Sing or dance: Dance...I can't sing to save my life...

_______Lately_______
[x] How are you today? I just worked 8 hours straight...I am dead...
[x] What pants are you wearing right now? my work pants...I'm too tired to change...

[x] What song are you listening to right now? not so much a song...as watching Pimp My Ride..the NEW season! woot!
[x] How is the weather right now? rainy...
[x] Last person you talked to on the phone? Brian *who now owes me $5 for the Sox game*

[x] Last dream you can remember? um...vaguely...sex...in my dreams...

[x] Who are you talking to right now? my computer
[x] What time is it? 9:09 pm

_______More About YOU!_______
[x] If you were a crayon, what color would you be? I like to put crayons in my nose...
[x] Have you ever almost died? Yup. Why do you think I was absent all last year...because I was having lung surgery...

[x] Have you ever won any special award? I got second place at the Battle of the Books in 4th Grade...with Charlie Gerrior and Peter Beaulieu

[x] What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? I almost punched a customer in the face today...
[x] How many kids do you want to have? as many as possible...I'll pop em out like there is no tomorrow...just to have the fun of making them...hehe
[x] Son's name? Jonas
[x] Daughter's name? Faye? London
[x] What are you most scared of? being alone...

[x] How many TV's do you have in your house? 4
[x] Do you have your own TV? yesh
[x] Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured/jammed a bone? yes...my ankle two years ago...

[x] Who do you dream about? sex...death...and sex...thoguh not all at once...
[x] Who do you tell your dreams to? random people in the halls
[x] Is cheerleading a sport? Yes...if you sweat...it's a sport...

_______You And Love_______
[x] Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? yes...NICK
[x] Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? a bed
[x] What do you like most of the opposite sex? their penis!

[x] Do you find yourself attractive? Nope

[x] Do others find you attractive? hardly...my own boyfriend doesn't even say if I am...*sniffle*...the only thing anyone's ever said is that I have nice tits...

[x] What shirt are you wearing right now? my CVS uniform shirt...see above...
[x] What does your hair look like at the moment? Ponytail

Lions & Tigers & Bears...OH MYYYY!!!

angelicpawn — 2004-10-26T10:10:54-05:00

So....I had to drop out of Woodshop because the smell was killing me...right now, as we speak...or rather as I type and you read...I am in study in 216...dun dun dun...Worcester's room....he's a cool teacher so I don't mind...whatever...but I am hoping to audit Dobrowsky's F Period Photography class....I have been lately more and more inetersted in photography...a hazard of working in a photolab...I suppose...I hope I get into that class....Gorman put me in Rosa's Internet Access class for next semester...that will be fun...I like Rosa...he's one of the coolest teachers in this forsaken school...so...it'll be fun...and in other news...I got all my fabric and patterns to my Aunt so she can start sewing my halloween costume. I gave them to her yesterday, and she went home and started right away. Yeah...I am so bored....I have to work Friday from 4:30-10...so come on by to CVS in Middleborough and see me...oh yeah...and I am officially mad at Scott....first he said that bullshit about feeling up Nick, then he bit me (and I have a huge bruise) and he made fun by saying that I am "his minion" now, and then when we got back to my house...he started talking shit about me to my mother...what a cunt...anyways....I have to go because the periods almost over and I can't even believe that I just wrote this much while sitting here talking to Ryanne Condon...lmao...and anyways...I have to go to my second study of the day...then after that...guess what...I have another study...hahahahahaha....then Algebra...which isn't fun...but oh well...I'm gonna see if I can get out of work Friday so I can go to the Haunted House again...

sick...sick...s...

angelicpawn — 2004-11-07T03:11:55-05:00

I am so bored I don't know what to do. Ashley made me sick at Kristy's party...cause she was sick...and she kissed Jay, who made out with multiple people, including me. ARGGH! I am losing my voice.

I am going on a field trip Monday, tomorrow. I think I'm going with a bunch of seniors, because I asked all kinds of Juniors if they were going, and someone said that Demello doesn't even have a Junior class. Oh well, it's still a field trip. We are going to the Bristol County Jail in Dartmouth. We get to go to Papa Ginos...yay. I am kinda weirded out, because I have no idea what the effing field trip is for. Corie said she went and some guy scared her. It's not easy to scare Corie either, so I'm kinda weirded out. I'm sure that there will be at least one or two people on the trip I like...so I'm not scared...that much. My stupid mother won't drive me to Raynham so I can get my nails done. I need to get them done before tomorrow, just because I don't wanna go back to school with raggedy looking nails. I'll bribe her and tell her I'll pay for hers, too. Hmmm...I'll update later.

So...What Are You Waiting For? Fill It Out...

angelicpawn — 2004-11-08T05:11:15-05:00

* I love Jessica's _____.

*Jessica has the best ______.

*Jessica and I are ______.

*I met Jessica _______.

*Jessica loves ______.

*I hate Jessica's ______.

*Jessica hates my _______

*I wish Jessica would _______.

*If Jessica was with me right now I would ________.

*Jessica's best quality is________.

*Jessica's worst quality is _________.

*Jessica has the worst ______.

*I am jealous of Jessica's _______.

*If I could do one thing to Jessica it would be _____.

Fuckety Fucking Fuck.

angelicpawn — 2004-11-15T10:11:58-05:00

Yeah...guess where I just got home from at like 8pm? The hospital. Guess where I am on all the days where I am not with you all, having fun and being merry at good old Apponequet? I'm at the hospital. Guess where I was from last Wednesday until tonight? That's right....the hospital. And it sucked. Now, if that was the only aspect of my life that sucked, I'd have a pretty good life. I see and hear about relationships like Kelly and Nate's, and Jen and Bagel's, and like some others, whose obvious love for each other is endearing. Mostly...it's sickening, but sometimes, it's endearing. And then I look at a relationship near and dear to my heart: the one I have with my own boyfriend. Sometimes it's so fucked up, I hesitate to even call it a relationship. Just a few questions for you guys out there...if your girlfriend was in the hospital, wouldn't you at least call her once? And if you were in love with her and your mother didn't like her, would you tell your mother you had dumped her, just to get your mother off your back? Maybe it's just me, and It's all boyfriends who do these things. Maybe my view of love is so warped and twisted to believe that when you tell someone you love them, you're supposed to mean it, as well as feel it. I don't know anymore. I see most of you guys are going to homecoming. Good. It's fun. Really. As much as it's thought of as a superficial high school tradition, it's pretty fun.

Peepee

angelicpawn — 2004-11-19T01:11:56-05:00

It's last period and it's friday. I am practically peeing myself while I sit here and wait for school to be over and homecoming to be here. I am so excited. A lot of people are going. I talked to Mike...aka Daisies...today. He's going into the Jobcorps...like me...I will prolly see him, so it'll be really cool. He said he filled out the paperwork yesterday...and I'm so happy that we'll both be doing something that wse need and want to do. I had pizza for lunch...and salad...but they didn't have the dressing that I usually get...so I got this french with honey..or some nasty shit like that...and it was really gross. I don't know if Kathryn and Kristyn are going to homecoming...but I know Jen is...and she's gonna wear her trrenchcoat...hehe...fun times. I can't wait to be in the limo with Brit, Scottie, Kristy, Mike, Kara and Keri. It's gonna be so wild.teehee. Fun times are never far away when you're with a group like that.

QUIZ!

angelicpawn — 2004-11-19T01:11:27-05:00

1. What is the current name you go by? Jessica, although Jesse knows me as the girl who chases pink zebras…
2. How many candles did you last blow out on your birthday cake? 16
3. Names that are not your real ones? Um…I don’t know…people usually call me Jess.
4. Date you were born? 06.07.1988
5. Hair color? Naturally blonde, but ‘tis dyed black
6. Eye color? Blue
7. Shoe size? Depends whether it’s men’s or women’s shoes
8. Height? 5'3 AND A HALF!
9. Weight? Chaaaaaa…right…I SO totally weigh only 57 pounds! I do…*shifty eyes* Who said I didn’t?
10. Ok, those are all the boring questions, here’s some better ones.
11. Did you answer to the question above? I’m gonna have to agree with Jen, in that it wasn’t really a question…stupid.
FAVORITES
12. Drink? (List 3) coke, Pepsi, apple juice
13. Movie? (List 2) But I’m A Cheerleader, Rocky Horror Picture Show
14. TV shows? (List 2) Lost, The OC
15. Band/musician? (List 5) MSI, Dresden Dolls, Linkin Park, Eminem, D12
16. CD you own? (List 1) The House of 1000 Corpses Soundtrack
17. Room in your house? Like you didn’t know I would say kitchen?
18. Food? See above answer…
19. So, do you brush your teeth? Sure…every day…just like a good girl…
20. What about your hair? It’s okay…’tis black…and slightly frizzy…
21. Do you use mouthwash? No, I usually saltwater gargle, ‘tis better for the teeth
22. Are you being honest? Of course…I DON’T LIE! (Yes I do)
23. How about flossing? I once flossed too hard and cut my gums…they don’t allow me to floss anymore…
24. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yesh…if you don’t…I’ll just walk by a second time… *laughs*
25. Do you visit google.com frequently? Hells yeah…*high five Jen!*
25. How about ebay? Yes…
26. Did you notice there were two number 25’s? NO! OMFG…you just rocked my world!
27. Do you like taking pictures? Yes…’tis fun.
28. What is your favorite president on mount Rushmore? I don’t know which presidents there are on Mt. Rushmore…hehe
29. Ahh, who cares, no one knows which presidents are on the mountain anyway. TRUE!
30. Which invention is better: stapler or scissors? Stapler…I was watching King of Queens tonight, and this guy, he was shooting staples into a tin can, and he accidentally stapled himself…in the balls…. Ahahahaha…I laughed sooooo hard.
31. Do you believe in elves? Yeah…
32. Why? Because…YOUR MOM IS AN ELF!
33. OK oh…I didn’t know you already knew.
34. Do you like oranges? Not really…
35. How about the color orange? Eek…grossish
36. What is your lucky number? 7
37. Do you spend your days on the computer or do you go out and do things? Um…mostly on the computer.
38. Do spiders scare you? No. spiders are HOTT!
39. Do you have a garden? Nope
40. Can you juggle? I can juggle school and work…get it? I crack myself up…eh.
41. Do you like junk food? Who is gonna say no?
42. School is... blegh.
43. That one above you were supposed to complete the sentence. did you complete it? No.
44. Do you know how to snap? Yes…
45. Music: loud or quiet? Loud…reallllllly loud.
46. Elmo is... tickled?
47. Do you like pudding? Not really
48. Ever eaten Jell-O? Yes
49. Ever been in a food fight? Haha…yes
50. Who started the food fight? Tch…me!
51. If you haven’t been in a food fight I recommend you get out more or hang out with funnier people.
52. What kind of shampoo do you use? Garnier Fructisse
53. What brand of toothpaste do you buy? The kind Emeril advertises
53. Are you superstitious? Yes
54. Did you notice that there were two number 53's again? NO. *faints*
55. Do you want to get married? *gasp*…I was rather hoping Nick would ask…but you’ll do…SURE!
56. Want kids? Yes…Nick’s…alllll of them…
57. What do you want to be when you grow up? I have to grow up? Man.
58. What instrument do you play? None.
59. Do you like having the hiccups? Sometimes…cause then the teachers don’t call on you. Hehe
60. What kind of soap do you use? Foaming cleanser
61. What’s your room look like? I have no discernable room at the moment
62. What age did you get your first kiss at? 12
63. Who are you in love with? I know your in love with someone so dont lie. Nick
64. What’s your worst habit(s)? Being too loud, procrastination
65. You know how snowmen melt in the sun. Well, do you often think of ways to help them, like make really huge ice buckets and keep them in there till winter? I once made a tiny snowman on the hood of my mom’s car, and put it in the freezer when it started to melt…but my mom threw him away…*sniffle*
66. Did you answer yes to that question above, cause that is one weird question? Yes…I’m sorry.
67. Do you pay attention in English class? Yesh…it’s my favorite class...lol
68. How about math? Sometimes…but Bowles is boring…
69. Don’t you hate science class? Sometimes…Worcester is a hard teacher to follow….
70. Your lunch usually consists of... nothing…I usually don’t buy lunch…
71. Do you like wearing socks? Why do you think I like saying random things rock my socks…cause I LOVE SOCKS!
72. You most prized possession is... my tongue.
73. Blue or yellow? Blue
74. Do you use hair gel? Nope..spray
74. Ever broken the law? no...
75. Pen or pencil? Pencil…clickety click pencil
76. List your morning routine please. (for going to work, school, anywhere but the beach or disneyland or your dear old grandparents house) wake up.get dressed.grab bag.run outside.catch bus in the nick of time.
77. Wow, thats some routine. Yeah…I’m not sured how I do it
78. Do you have a tv in your room? Yes…
79. Do you shop at goodwill frequently? yes
80. Do you ever just wanna give all the homeless people some taco bell, 5 bucks and tell them to get off the streets and get a job? No, but I am buying a shirt that says ”Yes, I have plenty of change you homeless piece of shit, thanks for asking.”
81. Are you going to heaven or hell? I think you can tell by my last answer.
82. How do you know that? Cause I am soooo taking over down there…
83. Can you tell me where im going? I can tell you where you could go…
84. Great, thanks.
85. Ever make sandcastle in the sand at the beach. Yes…then I pretend I’m Godzilla, and I smash them…and all the others…
86. If there was a stray dog in the road wanting water, would you help it? Yes…
87. What color is your toothbrush? purple
88. What kind of car does your mom have? Silver Saturn
89. What’s you mom's name? Beth
90. What kind of car does your dad have? I’d tell you if I knew him
91. Well, what’s his name? See above
92. What’s your siblings names and ages? Josh a.k.a. Test Tube a.k.a. Tits a.k.a. Estrogen Boy, 12
93. What do you usually watch on TV? Anything and everything
94. Favorite movie that you own. House of 1000 Corpses
95. Good choice.
96. Are you insane? Yes. Completely.
97. Are you funny or boring? Tch…I am a master comedian. Bow before my mighty sense of humor.
98. What is a turn on for the opposite sex? I would say being alive too…but then Nate always calls me a Necro…so apparently…not being alive is a turn on.
99. What about a turn off? stuff
100. Oh my god its number 100 tch…too bad you didn’t notice when it was number 69.
101. 101 Dalmations... I like to skin puppies too!
102. Is Christmas the best holiday? Nope…my birthday is…and the best thing? Even jewish kids can celebrate my birthday!
103. Is the Easter bunny the coolest thing alive? No…Little Bunny Foo Foo is.
104. Did you collect rolie polies when you were younger then put them in a jar and then not feed them and watch them suffer? no....I did that to salamanders and bugs. WTF is a rolie polie?
105. Wow that was some question above. completely normal
106. Who controls the universe? Me (…and apparently Jen also…?
107. What do you think of who controls the universe? We’re so spiffy
108. That didn’t make much sense. Mmmmm…ketchup!
109. Baseball games or football games? Baseball…Yankees baseball…
110. Kites are... meant for flying…
111. Do you do drugs? Um…No
112. What about drink alcoholic beverages? When the occasion arises, I have been known to get sloshed.
113. Ever been arrested? Almost…by the Wal-Mart police…hahahahaha
114. Do you have a calendar hanging up in your room? Yes…with naked girls on it…hahahahaha
115. Do you hide things underneath your mattress? Yes…ooh…now I have to find a new hiding place don’t I? DAMN YOU!
116. Is there stuff under your bed? Yep...stuff
117. Is your room mostly clean or dirty? Not mostly, but ALL dirty
118. What about your house. Clean or dirty? Mostly clean
119. Ever made a rubber band ball? No…I have too much ADD for that
120. What kind of shoes do you wear? Sneakers
121. Ok that’s it. Bye. NICE! Bye…I’ll miss you…*sniffle*

Homecoming Sucked.

angelicpawn — 2004-11-21T10:11:03-05:00

Homecoming wasn't very fun for me. Kristy and Britt and Mike and Scott tried to cheer me up...but it wasn't working. I thought that I could go and be with friends...and have tons of fun...and just be wild for one night. I was right...sort of. I was all in the wild state of mind until I walked in the door with everyone and saw couple galore. That wasn't just it, though. I never realized how many slow songs they played before. It is a lot. Or...well...they prolly only played a few the whole night, and each time they did...it was a poignant moment for me...because I wasn't there with the one person I should have been. I saw Jen and Bagel...Ben and Ash...Nate and Kelly...Kristy and Mike...Britt and Scottie...and countless other couples that looked so cute. I remember sitting there and wondering why Nick hadn't come. Was it because he didn't want to? Brit said he didn't come because last year at homecoming Corie dumped him...and he didn't want me to do it too. Was he scared? He said "his mother wouldn't let him go".Okay. Why? I don't know. Then...to make things worse...I was feeling so bad that when Ethan and this really horribly weird kid Bruce came and sat at our table...I didn't even tell them to go away...I would have if I had been my usual self...but I was so out of it.that I just sat there and stared...and I feel horrible now because I just read Kerri's blog and she said that Gerard and his date had to go eat in the hallway...and now I'm more upset...because I didn't mean to just let them sit there. I would have told them to move...but then Gerard and his date went away...and I didn't see them again...and I danced with Ethan...why? I am beginning to regret this now. I was so sad...and maybe I made the wrong choice dancing with him...how am I even going to act around him in class now? Is Gerard mad at me? Brian asked me to dance once...and I was sitting there feeling sorry for myself...so I said no...and then Brian walked away...and I didn't see him for the rest of the night...and I kept looking for him. I spent the rest of the night with Ethan...and I think I kinda...in my need for male contact....stalked him a little. Uh-oh. Yeah...the night sucked.

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angelicpawn — 2004-11-23T08:11:08-05:00

AHHHH...back in school...I hate school...bleh...first period tis over...time for art...Yay?

Yay...Third period of the day...

angelicpawn — 2004-11-23T09:11:40-05:00

So...it's third period...and coincidentally...my second study of the day...hmm...that means that tomorrow, on the half day...I will have History, Study, and art...which seems like an easy enough day. Kelly changed her picture...aww...so cute...and Scottie's mommy...she sent me couple of the homecoming pictures in an email...so they're cute...and...um ....I have nothing else to say...except...I am RAD! Kyle says so.

Happy Thanksgiving...

angelicpawn — 2004-11-24T09:11:56-05:00

Happy Thanksgiving.

I am tired...and oh so hungry...I didn't eat at all today in preparation for tomorrow...yay...food.

oh yeah...Happy Thanksgiving...

Yes...Thanksgiv...

angelicpawn — 2004-11-25T01:11:11-05:00

So...it's Thanksgiving...and the humongous amounts of food are almost finished...so I am about to go downstairs to the table and die of too-much-food-itis. Heh...yeah. Anyways...like I said last night...Happy Thanksgiving.

Bagel in the Morning....

angelicpawn — 2004-11-29T12:11:17-05:00

I think I just almost peed myself. I just came from lunch...where me and Stuart and Chris totally elaborated on the whole 'Bagel every morning' post of Jen's. Then randomly...Kayleigh Westgate came up to our table and goes to Stuart,"Are you the kid who's obsessed with Aretha Franklin? Stuart said yes...then Kayleigh goes..."Are you gay??" I almost pissed my pants. It was so hilarious. Why would you randomly go up to someone at lunch and ask them if they're gay? Oh em gee...I seriously almost pissed myself.. In other news...Nick has not called nor has he even said hello to me...no text messages...no nothing...I seriously have to have a talk with this boy. In other other news...I am only working 8 hours this week. Tonight from 5-9...then Thursday 5-9. Stupid Gorman wouldn't give me the paper I need to sign to drop out. Anyways...there's like 20 more minutes in the period...then I go to Algebra...which is now In Cabucio's room...because ADP took over our normal room...and I'm confused now. But oh well...

I Cut Because I Can - Veronica Mars

angelicpawn — 2004-12-02T03:12:58-05:00

So...yeah...my mother actually accused me of faking an asthma attack yesterday morning. I haven't been feeling good the past week. Yesterday I was having wicked trouble breathing and I didn't go to school...so I stayed home and did breathing treatments for hours. She then comes up to me and accuses me of faking it so I could stay home. Seriously...why in the fucking hell would I stay home with her bitching at me when I could go to school where at least 4 out of 10 people make me NOT want to kill myself. Brian came over and we watched Garfield on Tuesday...it amazes me how we can be so different and still be friends. I love the kid to death. It's like...I don't understand why it is that anyone would want to be friends with me...seriously...and this isn't just a self pity trip either. I mean...I love each of my friends for different reasons...and some for the same...but each have specific qualities that appeal to me and make me love them and want to be around them. What do I have...besides as Nate likes to point out..the fact that I like to hump dead bodies...?

Yes...Brian...I do say I'm going to talk to him...and I never do. It's right hard to talk to someone who doesn't want to be talked to. I'll just stop complaining...and wait for him to realize what he's doing...because he never talks to me...so I guess I'm stuck. All my complaining does is make you guys hate him more...and make you think of me more as a brainless waif for letting him do all this shit to me. So...I'll just shut up. Maybe if I get quiet...he'll realize he's losing me.

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angelicpawn — 2004-12-06T07:12:15-05:00

School equals poop.

Am I High Maintenance?

angelicpawn — 2004-12-08T10:12:49-05:00

I got 1 Demello Dollar! lol...So now he's giving out points for answering questions and calling these points 'Demello Dollars'. He said something like 20 points equals a donut and coffee...so...sweet...I have a grand total of ONE dollar. I miss Miller. I haven't talked to him in a long time. The other night he was supposed to call me...but he didn't...and I got mad. I think a boyfriend should call at least once a week. I consider myself pretty low-maintenance. I don't think that I require a lot...from a boyfriend...I just want someone to talk to...be there for me...and...yeah...sex...but Miller is 0 for 3.

You Want WHAT For Christmas?!

angelicpawn — 2004-12-09T08:12:21-05:00

So...I spent three periods in art today.

Rolls Eyes

angelicpawn — 2004-12-10T04:12:43-05:00

Well...

angelicpawn — 2004-12-10T04:12:31-05:00

Maybe it's me who is not putting enough into my relationship as I should be...I mean...he never calls me...so...I in turn, never call him. Maybe I should. OH! That's right...he told me I shouldn't write about him...in art today, I was gonna have a talk with him, and I wanted him to have a chance to tell me anything he needed to get off his chest before I went and dumped my feelings all the fuck over him, so I asked him if there was anything he wanted to tell me, like if I did annoying things, or if anything I did bothered him. He said no. He looked at me like he had something to say, though, so I told him that I wasn't gonna be mad, and it didn't bother me, cause I wanted the truth. He said..."Well...no...nothing bothers me...but it made me mad when you wrote about me in your livejournal." Then he gave me this seriously sly look that made me feel weird. It was as if he was saying...Yeah...you didn't think I knew about it...and I do...and I read what you wrote bitch. He didn't say that, but his eyes did. Anyways...it's not like I hide anything from him. If he were to happen onto my mindsay...or my livejournal...no biggie...I actually maybe guess I want him to a little bit. Anyways...he started to go on and on about how I wrote about him and Deana Bitch and how he didn't want me to and it 'enraged' him. Then, he said how I "should NOT write about things that go on behind closed doors, because there are those who would make fun". Fuckin A! If I want to go and tell the world I want sex because my boyfriend doesn't give me any...why should he care...and he said how it made him feel like shit when he read about how upset I was when I was in the hospital writing about how him and Deana had been together and how sick and sad it made me. I'm over it. I mean...Deana is a raging bitch...but I don't give a fuck about her anymore. What I do care about is that Nick abandoned me at a time when I needed him most. When I was in the hospital having lung surgery...there was nary a call from him. 3 MONTHS! How am I not supposed to be bitter?! Then...when I actually got an email from him in March...then I realized I still liked him. In April we got back together. In 8 days...it will be 8 months we've been going out. Obviously though, as Sarah from his art class proved...he doesn't know that. Psh...that's probably why he didn't even remember our 6-month anniversary. Even after I gave him a card. I'm sorry if he doesn't want me writing about him...but what is a journal...online or otherwise for? It's for venting your happiness, sadness and everything in between. He has been the source of some of my happiness and most of my sadness for almost eight months. How am I supposed to just cut that part of my life out when I feel like writing? I'm sorry, I love him, but I can't do that. Shit balls....everything is so fucked...and he even said that he was going to call me tonight and that he promised...this is so fucked...because I know he isn't going to call me. I love him...but I know what he does. I think I will have a heart attack if he actually does call...and I will owe him an apology for doubting him.

stab

angelicpawn — 2004-12-10T05:12:47-05:00

If you come to see meand don't fill this out...I will steal your penis...or...vagina...jk...I'll just stab you.

...

angelicpawn — 2004-12-10T05:12:52-05:00

~*WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:*~
» I died from natural causes:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started/kept smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized (like that hasn't happened...):
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Family (Mrs. Jess's Mom!):

WOULD YOU:
» Be my friend?:
» Keep a secret if I told you one?:
» Hold my hand?:
» Take a bullet for me?:
» Keep in touch?:
» Try and solve my problems?:
» Love me?:
» Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
» Lied to make me feel better?:
» Wanted to kiss me?:
» Wanted to kill me?:
» Broke my heart?:
» Kept something important from me?:
» Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

~~**~~::.And More.::~~**~~

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna put this on your blog to see what I say about you?

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angelicpawn — 2004-12-11T03:12:45-05:00

Looks like I don't owe Nicholas any apologies...because he never called.

What A Day...

angelicpawn — 2004-12-15T02:12:32-05:00

Well...it's fun having Art three periods a day. Today will henceforth be known as the day of much elastic flinging. I think that BJ is slightly embarrassed because I kept hitting him in the ass. Heh...I mean...he's short...and he kept standing up...I eman seriously..Justin how could I not go for it? Then there was the sticker epidemic of the bus. Doug stuck his finger in Kathryn's ass...and then he tried to grope Tristyn...fun times...Oh yeah...I have 17 absences...HAHAHHA...

YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO CALL BUT YOU DIDNT

angelicpawn — 2004-12-18T10:12:32-05:00

HAPPY FUCKING EIGHT MONTH ANNIVERSARY NICK YOU FUCKING CUNT.

Blah......

angelicpawn — 2005-01-07T07:01:19-05:00

Tsunami......ahahahahahahahaha....

oh....Grandma says she wants you gone when she gets back, because you're eating all our steak and ruining everyone's life.

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angelicpawn — 2005-01-12T09:01:17-05:00

2 hour delayyyyyyyyyy....

your mom goes to college.

Your mom...

angelicpawn — 2005-01-13T07:01:41-05:00

HEY.....YOUR MOM GOES TO COLLEGE.

GOSH! IDIOTS!

READ THIS BITCHES!

angelicpawn — 2005-01-19T07:01:18-05:00

SO WTF!

http://www.livejournal.com/users/savagedarkness9/635.html

Nick....the epitome of Masculinity!

angelicpawn — 2005-01-20T07:01:57-05:00

Yeah....so...I suppose we all know that I am single now. Tch....yeaaaah. It's all because of your mom.

Not really. I will tell you all that it's on my LJ for all to see. I find it hilarious. Nick is such a masculine man that he had to break up with me over the INTERNET! I laughed myself to sleep last night. laughed and laughed and laughed...over that and the fact that everyone hates him now. Because he dumped me OVER THE FREAKIN INTERNET. GOSH...IDIOT!

So...we'll see what happens on Friday at lunch...if he comes...maybe I'll just flip for the fun of it...I could use a nice suspension for throwing food...mwahahahahaha....or maybe I'll just flip out...cause I don't want food all over me...so maybe I'll just get really really loud...and obnoxious...and LOUD and mean.....hmm....mean...yes...

I am worrth.......yo... mom!

angelicpawn — 2005-01-24T04:01:19-05:00

How much am I worth?

I am worth $1,172,500.00

on http://www.HumanForSale.com

Crafty Swine....

angelicpawn — 2005-01-25T05:01:53-05:00

So....

It seems today...
that all we see...
is violence in movies...
and sex on TV...
but where are those good old fashioned values...
on which we used to rely...
lucky there's a family guy...
lucky there's a man who...
positively can do...
all the things that make us effin cry...
he's.....a.....family....guuuuuuuuuuuuy!

Don't Lie To Me.

angelicpawn — 2005-01-26T10:01:52-05:00

So you took me off of your livejournal friends list. Whatever...after all that stuff you said about how you still want to be friends...

Anything that I have to say...I say it...with no reservations. I'm not afraid. Maybe you are?

Why did you take me off of your friends list and then make your posts friends only?

Why did you delete a comment that made you look bad?

I don't delete comments that make me look bad...because I have enough confidence in myself to not be too bothered by what other people say. Also, because I think other people should be allowed to say what they think...no matter what.

It's kinda obvious that any post that you make under friends only is gonna be dirogatory towards me or one of my friends....Am I self-centered to think that? Maybe. Actually prolly...cause maybe you feel the need to make any post, that could be about the most inane subject...friends only.

I did cry. It did hurt. Just because you don't see me cry...doesn't mean that I am unaffected.

Did I love you? Honestly? Yes.

Do you think I tell people to say those things? What other people say...that's purely them. Although I did tell one person to kick you....and okay...I shouldn't have done that...but I was mad...and it was almost a week ago. And...she wouldn't kick you anyways...she's one of your real friends.

So...please...don't say you want to be friends...unless you mean it. And anything you have to say about me, or regarding me, or about one of my friends...just say it to my face...I would do the same for you.

If you think I talk shit, ask me about it...if you think I wrote something about you...ask me about it.

I don't lie.

Back Already?

angelicpawn — 2005-01-31T07:01:00-05:00

Yay....

Nate scared the crap out of me in the library this morning...and I am on my way to see Kelly in Art....my day is just starting and is yet already complete. Meh.

Figure This!

angelicpawn — 2005-02-12T02:02:37-05:00

Well...since it seems like the cool thing to do...then let's all watch as I post 15 quotes from movies that I love...and let's see if you brian machines out there can tell what movies they are from...

1. "Let the whole world be as I am. Let winter rule always..."

2. "But that's not logic now. Is it? It must've been one of them "Unidentified Flying Cupcakes". Or a figment of me imagination. But I don't have an imagination."

3. "Enchante. Well! How nice. And what charming underclothes you both have. "

4. M: You got a man?

N: No.
M: Well, where is the prick who put you in this mess?
N: California.
M: That figures. All the pricks move to California. They should just call it Prickafornia.

5. "They call him Snooky cause Fool was taken."

6. Daryl: You gotta be shittin' me

Chris: Watch your mouth.

Daryl: Watch my mouth? You gotta to be shittin' me!

7. "Well, I have all your equipment in my locker. You should probably come get it cause I can't fit my numchucks in there anymore."

8. A: You won't shoot her. You suffer from the hero's curse of hope.

M: Yeah, I got hope. I hope my first shot blows your fuckin' head off!

9. "You stole this company from my father. It killed him and it killed my mother and now you're trying to kill me. You're trying to take my house. You made a fool of me in front of everybody. You made me hate myself. I thought about it a lot, hating myself. Well right now, at this moment, I LIKE myself."

10. Maria Kirk: Good morning! You're up early today.

Peter Kirk: [looks briefly at Maria, then jumps off the balcony without a word]

11. [Cookie Monster sees a painting of fruit]
Cookie Monster: Me eat picture!
Bob: No, no, no, Cookie Monster. You can't touch the picture.
Cookie Monster: No, me don't want to touch, me want to eat.
Bob: No, you can't, nooooo!
Cookie Monster: Let me eat frame.
Bob: The sign, Cookie Monster, look at the sign.
[sees a sign that forbids eating pictures]
Cookie Monster: Please don't eat the pictures. Aw, this going to be long night.

12. "On my planet, we don't say die, we say... HEY! NOT MY SHORTS!"

13. Melissa Crandell: We have to get up at the butt-crack of dawn to tidy up the garage!"

14. Jim: Look, maybe we should give him a chance. You know, I think - I think that underneath all the "fucks" and "shits" and "blow me's", there's a very sensitive person who's just thirsty for acceptance. That's... that's what I think.

Michelle: Oh, Jim... you gotta stop masturbating... it's melting your brain.

15. "No! I tell you no! I won't have you bringing some young girl in for supper! By candlelight, I suppose, in the cheap, erotic fashion of young men with cheap, erotic minds!"

Cookies!

angelicpawn — 2005-02-13T04:02:05-05:00

Congrats Openguin....7 is Napoleon Dynamite!

I owe you a cookie!

~Beauty School Drop-Out~

angelicpawn — 2005-02-16T02:02:31-05:00

So....

1. The sun is bigger than the universe....

2. Jaime thinks the Renaissance was a buffer between Germany and Italy.

3. "Are you on LSD?!"

4. Hahahhahahahahahah...Jen made Doyle cry.

Is there honestly anyone...at all who would mis me if I died? I should kill myself. I bring nothing to the table...seriously..I think I'm gonna pass out a questionairre...

WHO WOULD REALLY MISS JESSICA CHRISTENSEN IF SHE DISAPPEARED OFF OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH?

Kelly Did It...So Now I Did It.....

angelicpawn — 2005-02-19T04:02:15-05:00

01. Who are you, what's our relationship?
02. How and where did we meet?
03. What's my middle name
04. How long have you known me?
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?
07. My age?
08. Birthday?
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Colour eyes?
11. Do I have any siblings?
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking?
18. How would you describe me to someone?
19. Would you ever date me?
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me?
22: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight?
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it?
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

Brainless Farts

angelicpawn — 2005-02-22T02:02:48-05:00

Since you all are seriously mentally deficient...I will tell you where all the quotes came from....

1. Snow Queen - Best four hour movie....
"Let the whole world be as I am. Let winter rule always..."

2. Yellow Submarine...come on people..who doesn't love it?
"But that's not logic now. Is it? It must've been one of them "Unidentified Flying Cupcakes". Or a figment of me imagination. But I don't have an imagination."

3.
The Rocky Horror Picture Show...seriously...who couldn't get this?
"Enchante. Well! How nice. And what charming underclothes you both have. "

4.Where The Heart Is - slightly disturbing movie...but fun nonetheless
M: You got a man?
N: No.
M: Well, where is the prick who put you in this mess?
N: California.
M: That figures. All the pricks move to California. They should just call it Prickafornia.

5. Save The Last Dance - The most romantic movie I went to see in theaters...like four or so exes ago...
"They call him Snooky cause Fool was taken."

6. Adventures In Babysitting - Tch...movie still makes me laugh
Daryl: You gotta be shittin' me
Chris: Watch your mouth.
Daryl: Watch my mouth? You gotta to be shittin' me!

7. NAPOLEON DYNAMITE...bitches... openguin did get it right..she was the only frickin one to guess anything....GOSH...IDIOTS!
"Well, I have all your equipment in my locker. You should probably come get it cause I can't fit my numchucks in there anymore."

8. Fear Dot Com - the weirdest scary movie...
A: You won't shoot her. You suffer from the hero's curse of hope.
M: Yeah, I got hope. I hope my first shot blows your fuckin' head off!

9. Willard - another weird movie...and makes you think about all the quiet kids..*cough*
"You stole this company from my father. It killed him and it killed my mother and now you're trying to kill me. You're trying to take my house. You made a fool of me in front of everybody. You made me hate myself. I thought about it a lot, hating myself. Well right now, at this moment, I LIKE myself."

10. The Grudge - Not so much the lines...but it was in the beginning of the movie and I think I laughed so hard I peed my pants...everyone in the fricking theatre laughed out loud.
Maria Kirk: Good morning! You're up early today.
Peter Kirk: [looks briefly at Maria, then jumps off the balcony without a word]

11. Don't Eat The Pictures - Sesame Street Goes To The Metropolitan Museum of Art - possibly the movie with the longest title ever...but it is my favorite movie ever...and if anyone gets the DVD for me I will be in debt to them forever...because it is absolutely impossible to find...
[Cookie Monster sees a painting of fruit]
Cookie Monster: Me eat picture!
Bob: No, no, no, Cookie Monster. You can't touch the picture.
Cookie Monster: No, me don't want to touch, me want to eat.
Bob: No, you can't, nooooo!
Cookie Monster: Let me eat frame.
Bob: The sign, Cookie Monster, look at the sign.
[sees a sign that forbids eating pictures]
Cookie Monster: Please don't eat the pictures. Aw, this going to be long night.

12. Howard The Duck - I watched this movie for the first time with Kathryn and Nick Beverly...the coolest kids ever...:P
"On my planet, we don't say die, we say... HEY! NOT MY SHORTS!"

13. Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's Dead - So...I used to watch this all the time as a kid...
Melissa Crandell: We have to get up at the butt-crack of dawn to tidy up the garage!"

14. American Wedding - No movie quote list would be complete without a quote from one of the American Pie Trilogy
Jim: Look, maybe we should give him a chance. You know, I think - I think that underneath all the "fucks" and "shits" and "blow me's", there's a very sensitive person who's just thirsty for acceptance. That's... that's what I think.
Michelle: Oh, Jim... you gotta stop masturbating... it's melting your brain.

15. Psycho - I hate you all for not guessing this one!
"No! I tell you no! I won't have you bringing some young girl in for supper! By candlelight, I suppose, in the cheap, erotic fashion of young men with cheap, erotic minds!"

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angelicpawn — 2005-02-22T02:02:16-05:00

So I noticed that none of you bitches have replied to my survey...so I am going to post it again...and keep reposting it...in an effort to make you talk to me...so take it...before I viciously rape all of you...cause you know I'll do it to...worse than the molestation Paco gave to me....ask Kelly and Nate...they saw it...grrr

I Know You All Miss Me

angelicpawn — 2005-03-03T04:03:12-05:00

SO...guess who is in teh hospital.......guess....I s'pose you're right...tis me. I miss you all terribly...'specially your mom....it's nice to be in the hospital and not feel like shit because the one person who is supposed to call you never does. I'm prolly getting out tomorrow...and not coming back to schizzle til next week. I miss you all terribly...I really do. I miss Kelly and her boobahs...I miss Nate and his 'NECRO!' shouts...I miss Amy and her decapitated goth Tinkerbell. I miss Adriana....and her beeper...lmao....I miss you all...and it's never so apparent what you have until you lose it...or in my case...get sick...and...the hospital kidnaps you and doesn't let you see it...so...I know it's a rant...but I <3 you all...and I can't wait to be back...

....MOCHAHCHA

angelicpawn — 2005-03-11T12:03:00-05:00

So....bitches....Nick read the awesome letter my brother wrote, and I think that he is going to really go off and have some Haagen Daz now. He seriously looked like he was going to cry!....I think I peed a little, I laughed so hard. Oh man....and *shudder* Heather Miranda started talking about...dun dun dun ....her period.....BLECH! I think I'm gonna go puke now!

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angelicpawn — 2005-03-13T02:03:28-05:00

Why is Tigger so dirty?

Cause he always plays with Pooh....

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

The Irony To End All Ironies

angelicpawn — 2005-03-21T01:03:35-05:00

I find it extremely ironic,when I was watching television, that on the first commercial break on a MSNBC special on serial killers, such as Jeff Dahmer, Ted Bundy, and Aileen Wuornos, the first ads to air were:

1. LCR- A very strong all-purpose chemical cleaner,

2. An Adult ADD medication,

3. An ad for a local lawyer's office.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

angelicpawn — 2005-03-24T07:03:35-05:00

Fiiiiiiieeeeeeeld Trippppppppp.......Fieeeeeeeeeeelddddd Trrrrrrrrrrriipppppppp.......

Loves it.

We had an intra-bus discussion on how icky Nick Miller is.

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angelicpawn — 2005-04-05T02:04:25-05:00

Jut to let you all know....

I am in Boston Children's hospital, and I have blood clots in my lungs an my arms, and i don't know if I'm going to get better.

Morphine and Dilautid and Valium and Tylenol and Wellbutrin...

angelicpawn — 2005-04-08T06:04:32-05:00

I've been in the hospital since the day before Easter. It seems the doctor discovered I have blood clots in my lungs and a one in my arm, and I have to have a MRI of my heart while I am here, because they are afraid that my heart will suddenly stop beating.

The doctor said to me, "We want to get an MRI of your heart while you're here, because we think it might stop beating, and you'll die." That brightened my day.

I might die. That's nice. Then no one can threaten me with an X-Acto Knife, and I can't be bothered by Ben Dubois. Tyler won't steal the candy from my table and tell me he's doing me a favor. I won't have to serve Monday Detentions because I hate Ms Bowles cause she is a bitch to me and I skip her class.

I'll miss Doug...he was a cute freshman, one I enjoyed boying porn for. I'll miss Adriana and her beeper, Kelly and her mysteriousness. I'll Miss Ethan and his cuteness...I bought him a birthday present when I read his myspace, and I read when his brthday was, so I went out and bought him a birthday present and I might not be able to give it to him...it will sit unwrapped in my room at my house.

Will I slowly be forgotten? Will my family throw out all of my stuff? Will I still get junk mail sent to my home? What happens to the magazine subscriptions that I had renewed for 3 years?

My heart might stop. That's okay.

Kathryn came to see me today. Stuart and Jesse have called me the last two nights to talk on the phone. I have been in the hospital since the day before Easter and I don't think anyone notices I am gone. I have friends, plenty of them, and they are sincere enough. Do they love me enough to visit me in the hospital? No...and I guess that's okay, because my heart might stop soon anyway.

Call Me, Beep me, If You Wanna....FUCK YOU KIM POSSIBLE! I hate you!

angelicpawn — 2005-04-11T11:04:20-05:00

You think you know, but you have no idea.

Yesterday afternoon I was so depressed, because nobody has talked to me, and I was crying, and all the nurses were looking at me strange like I was goin to kill myself or something.

Ethan called...and I didn't recognize his voice at first, cause he was all polite-like, and all like "May I please speak to Jessica?" I hearted that.

He made me feel so much better. Just when I was so so upset, he called and told me tht yes, there are people that miss me. He said he wanted to come visit. <3

Then Britney called. She wants to come visit, but not if I'm in Iraq. Cause she would be considered a slut. ^.^ Love ya Brit.

I appreciate all the love...though...*.* only from three people...it is still love, and that makes me love those three people all the more. Ooh...and Jen and Izzy and some person who shares my HOTT birthday miss me too. That makes siz...plus Jesse and Stuart. OH EM GEE...EEEIGGHTT!!!! Eight people miss me. I think I'm gonna have a stroke. This is even better than the last time I was in the hospital and Ryanne came to visit me and made fun of kids who have cancer, while my roommate, who had cancer, was in the room. I'm going to hell.

For all those who are wondering, I am in Boston, at Boston Children's Hospital. It's not hard...let me give you directions:

1. Pick up the phone
2. Dial 411
3. Ask for Boston Massachusetts, then Boston Children's Hospital
4. When you get the main number, you call it.
5. When someone answers, you ask to be connected to a patient's room.
6. When they ask what patient, you say Jessica Christensen-Cook.
7. End result - Me HaPpY!

Put the lime in the coke you nut.

The doctors said I was strange and they're making me take Wellbutrin. Me...STRANGE?! Pshaw at you doctors, pshaw. They say I'll be taking coumadin for the rest of my life, which means no more piercings and no more tattoos. Maybe, If I go off of coumadin, and onto the lovenox shots, then I can get another tattoo, but that's later, when I am actually better.

Oh, Britney. You're too old, but I love you. Hehe.

I wonder if he thought you were making fun of him, and that's why he was jerky about answering. *le sigh*

I feel like shit. Like shit in pain. Like if shit was high on pain meds and still in pain, that's what I feel like.

I noticed that, since I am on blood thinners, I bruise easily, that means a few things:
1. If I flick myself, I bruise.
2. If I ever claim abuse, I've got a hell of a case...muahahaha...THAT NURSE HIT ME!
3. Bruises come in so many colors, but they all look ugly on me.
4. I like onion rings...but not onions...except when they're in Chinese food. Not onion rings, just onions...in Chinese food.

My roommate is the cutest 3 year old. She has her TV on 24/7...on DISNEY! I really can't tell how many episodes I have watched of The Wiggles, Phil of the fucking Future, Kim Possible, Lizzie McGuire, Jake Long American Dragon, and every other piece of (&^$%# Disney ever made.

I feel so bad...I don't know whether I am going to be out of the hospital for my little brother's birthday...which is the 16th. I have $100+ in my bank account, and I can't do shit about it, because I am stuck here. I had to make him a card...I can't even buy my little brother a fucking birthday card....I had to make one. That makes me feel like shit.

Then, there's the Pride March, and then Prom. Both of which I want to go to. Prom...I wonder if he's going to ask me if I am going to ask him. I am pretty shy when it comes to that, believe it or not. Now that Britney kinda almost asked him, and he was kinda like...um....sketchy about it...I don't wanna ask, and have him say No, or worse, have him say Yes, cause he feels bad I am all Hospital-y. He's cool, and I don't wanna freak him out or lose him as a friend, cause he is really awesome. Most of the time, he makes me laugh, but then he can be serious and such a sweetheart. He's my Buuuuuuuuuuudddddy. *note the Pauly Shore voice*

Wanna hear something disturbing, and a little bit gross?
Someone turned the heat waaaaay up last night, and I realized when I woke up that
sweat smell + Hospital sheets = Chlorine smell AMAZING! Crikey.

In closing, I would like to say, Pink Zebras to you, my friend.

Rar.....?

angelicpawn — 2005-04-13T05:04:34-05:00

Rar. Home Tomorrow. Did I say I'm going home tomorrow? I think I'm going home tomorrow. Oh...and did I mention I'm going home tomorrow?. By the by, just for your information, if you were wondering, I'm going home tomorrow. They made me have a Boston Shrink. He looks like Ben Stiller. Heh.

Time to Say Good-bye...

angelicpawn — 2005-04-24T08:04:03-05:00

I decided today that this coming week is going to be my last...in school, that is.

I am planning on going to school on Monday, I'll be a little late Tuesday, Wednesday, then Friday. Thursday I have appointments in Boston, so I won't be going.

I am going to miss everyone so bad.

Ahem, but there will be a few people I won't miss.

I won't miss Apponequet, in general. I won't miss Worcester and fucking Bowles, cause they are both insufferable cunts, and even this last week I have in school, I will continue to skip both their fucking classes.

Although I do have an urge to go into both their classes on Friday, and tell them both off, I'll try to resist.

This will be my time to say good-bye.

Even as some of my closest friends get ready to go to college, and I would be saying good-bye anyways, It's still gonna hurt. I don't know whether I will even see anyone again.

I applied to go to the Maine JCC. That's quite a few hours away.

I don't really expect much this week. If you want to say good-bye, then say it. I don't think you'll get another chance after this week. I know I affected some of you, though probably not in some overly profound way. I will miss most of you, even Erica Humphreys. That's a laugh. I would never have imagined myself even saying I would miss her. I will miss how pissed off she made me. I will remember her prejudice and startling ignorance of the world around her. I will remember how, after seeing her in Demello's D block history, I was ready to see Sarah and Amy and Jen and most of the others in E block Art, and how ready I was to start shit with those 'others'. It made my day.

I guess, if I didn't affect any of you, I feel safe saying that you each affected me in some small way.

I look forward to this week...I hope to see all of you, to tell you good-bye.

This'll be fun.

A Riddle

angelicpawn — 2005-05-02T01:05:05-05:00

I went into the woods and got it,

When I got it, I didn't want it.

I looked for it, and couldn't find it.

In the end, I brought it home.

What did I have?

....

angelicpawn — 2005-05-06T12:05:25-05:00

I am so bored.

I want to go to the coffeehouse on Friday...but I don't know if I have a ride....

I need to go to cheer on Jen if she sings, to hear Bagel's bagpipes, to boo Miller if he sings, and to see my lovely Apponequet friends....

If you feel like carting me to the coffehouse...then bringing me back..lemme know...cause I know EVERYONE! wants to do that...

I SO WANT ANOTHER PUPPY SURPRISE!

angelicpawn — 2005-05-10T02:05:14-05:00

I felt all nostalgic after reading Sam's blog, so I looked up all the 80's and 90's fads I remember.

Does anyone remember puppy surprise? It was a pregnant mother dog, with small puppies inside her. The jingle was like, "Puppy surprise, puppy surprise, how many inside? 3, 4, or 5?" I freaking loved those.

What about this:

Joy to the world,

the teacher's dead.

We barbecued her head.

What happened to her body?

We flushed it down the potty!

And around and around it goes...

and around and around it goes...

and around, around, around it goes.

You can't tell me you didn't use to sing that.

Lonely in the Mind

angelicpawn — 2005-05-15T02:05:25-05:00

Hello, hi, it's me, an outlaw,
and please, my love, accept happiness.
Hello, hello, it's me, Picasso,
I gave you a call and I'm neat,
But you must know I'm asking you nothing.

Children of the 80's UNITE! Even if you were born in 89...it's all good!

angelicpawn — 2005-05-16T01:05:17-05:00

Just thought this was relevant. It's the lyrics to the awesomest song..."Babies of the 80's" by Something Corporate.

I grew up on five-alive
And transformers and slip-n-slide
Toy's R Us and Chuck-e-Cheeze
Disco out and techno in
to synthesize my favorite sin
And here I am on my knees
To get it back again

Babies of the 80's
Little girls in lycra shorts
Tented beds, nerf contact sports
My babies of the 80's
Shout it out just one more time
For the generation that was all mine

We learned to crawl on linoleum floors
Ronald Regan fought Star Wars
But he'll never be Han Solo
Students march Tienemen Square
They took him out hey that's not fair
Dad said it's good to be free
As we watched from our T.V.

Babies of the 80's
Little girls in lycra shorts
Tented beds, nerf contact sports
My babies of the 80's
Shout it out just one more time
For the generation that was all mine

We watched the wall fall down
Woke up early for Bozo the clown
MTV and Nick at Night
And I slept for the first time
Without the light
without the light
without the light

My Babies of the 80's
Little girls in jelly shoes
got the ferris bueller blues
My babies of the 80's
yes we could be something after all
Who knew yes we could be something after all
Who knew yes we would be something after all
Who Knew

THIS Pisses Me Off!

angelicpawn — 2005-05-16T11:05:36-05:00

96% of people recognize these names:

BIll Gates

Walt Disney

Jackie Chan

Marilyn Manson

Luke Skywalker

Jesus

Sir Isaac Newton

But only 26% of peoiple know these two names:

Eric Harris

Dylan Klebold

Can someone tell me how the FUCK that happened?

If you reply asking me who Eric & Dylan are, I may have to stab you...

Just look it up, and learn...and memorize their names so you don't sound like an idiot.

Yes, Spicy Pork Will Continue To Appear In All My TagLines...FORE...

angelicpawn — 2005-05-27T02:05:46-05:00

I posted this on my LJ...Yes, I tend to wax philosophical at 230 in the AM. Read it. Any comments/thoughts are welcome.

I make it a priority to let people have their opinions, and to freely have my own.

I WILL NEVER let someone else force their ideas on me, or change my point of view to satisfy themselves.

Therefore, I would consider it hypocrisy to try to change someone else's point of view.

I have friends who are rascist, extreme white supremacists, homophobes of every varying level, and friends who are prejudice against any slight difference in a person.

Is it hypocritical of me, therefore, to be upset, or feel hurt when I see something like this:

http://massresistance.blogspot.com/2005/05/youth-pride-day-in-boston-may-21-how.html

...or is right? (My feelings, not the article...dumbass!)

When I used to encounter extremely homophobic people, I would get upset at their views. I used to argue why my views were right, or better than theirs. I used to tell them how close-minded, or how wrong they were.

If I don't want someone in my face saying what I believe is wrong, then I shouldn't do it to them. Do you understand?

Forgive me for the following comparison, but...

Most people think that bestiality is wrong, and bad.
There are those that think it is natural, and a fulfilling part of life.

Would I want someone who engages in, or even wholly believes in the rights of bestially inclined people, to tell me why their opinion is better than mine, or how close-minded I am?

Some people think that homosexuality is wrong, and bad.
There are those that think it is natural, and a fulfilling part of life.

I am of course, in NO WAY WHATSOEVER, comparing bestiality and homosexuality in and of themselves to each other. I am only comparing people's opinions, and the way ideas are thought about.

Thinking about this has made me critical about the idea that the only way to stop prejudices of any kind (In this case, homophobia) is knoweledge, which when you get right down to it, means convincing people they are wrong, and you are right.

What, exactly, would happen if there was no one to oppose homosexuality?

What would happen if, hypothetically, there was no opposition to homosexuality, and gradually, there became one. The gay community and its supporters would be the majority, and the few opposed would be the minority.

Would we then allow them their views, since they are the minority, or would we try to quelch them, simply for the fact that they are opposition to our comfortable way of life?

If that were to happen, would we thus become what we hate? Would we oppress those who oppress us now?

Yes, it is something to think about.

SUPER-DE-DUPER!

angelicpawn — 2005-05-29T02:05:40-05:00

Nice.

I love how Jen can get people's atention more than I can.

Thanks, Kyle, for commenting, and although I don't agree with you that my view on being 'indifferent' is wrong, I really agree with you that it is what caused the Holocaust...then again, I can't say I've gassed that many Jews, so I really can't be persecuted...yet. (Not saying I haven't gassed Jews yet, saying I haven't been persecuted yet. Not that I would gas Jews, never mind anyone, anyways.)

How can I be listened to more...TYPE IN ALL CAPS...?

That can be really and truly obnoxious, though.

I went and saw 'The Longest Yard' @ 710 on Friday. Super super funny ass movie. It was a sold-out show, and it was full of fucking young middle-schoolers that kept making loud and obnoxious and homophobic comments throughout the movie.

You know when something happens over and over, and you say to yourself, One more time, and I'll do something? That's what I did, only they shut up...and I was disappointed. I would have loved to get in a fight at the mall. FREAKIN SWEET!

PS...I am super old-school and I bought Neverending Story 2 and Perfect Dark and a gameboy color today...total...$21. again...FREAKIN SWEET!

PPS...Today was my mommie's 40th birthday...and I kept making cracks about it all day.

I.E- Are we going to rent 40 Days and 40 Nights tonight?...and I tried to give her birthday smacks, but she kept blocking. I got in 3, and then out of nowhere, she smacked me back, and it scared the shit out of me...then my brother started laughing at me and goes, "Hmmmm...Crouching Tiger...HIDDEN FORTY!"

lmao...is he the cutest little sack of shit ever, or what? Yeah...and he gave me his little fucking sore throat as well...FUCKING TITS!

Heh...tits...that reminds me...after Josh and I got out of the movie, we walked outside, Josh went back inside to go to the bathroom, and I met up with James Bessette. When Josh came back out and started walking towards us, James turned and went..."HEY TITS!"

He makes me laugh so much. James is freakin awesome.

Happy Birthday to me...all week long...

angelicpawn — 2005-06-09T08:06:03-05:00

It makes me so happy that I can come on here and have people say Happy Birthday to me. People I don't even know.

It does make me happy.

In other news...

OpEn InViTaTiOn~

I want all the super mindsay people to come to my party. It's this Saturday. I know lots of people have already made plans, but I would love it if you came.

It is my 17th Birthday party.

It is at my friend Scott's house from 4-9ish.

It is a pool party, so people need suits and lotion if they have it.

Comment back if you wanna go and I'll give the address and the number for RSVP/info.

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angelicpawn — 2005-06-16T10:06:26-05:00

oooh ooooh...

I bought the new L'arc En Ciel cd the other day.

It rawx.

I just put in whatever the suggested tags are now...

angelicpawn — 2005-06-28T06:06:03-05:00

So now school's out, and people get to experience what I have been experiencing for the last month or so...

complete and utter...BOREDOM!

I've been doing lots of stuff with Scott...

Scrapbooking, swimming, shopping, gossiping, TV watching, laughing...

It seems like now, he understands me more than anyone else...

Still More "Suggested Tags"

angelicpawn — 2005-06-30T11:06:31-05:00

So...

I'm kinda thinking about what I'm gonna do on July 4th.

I am sad because I need to get out of my head what I did last 4th, with he-who-shall-not-be-named.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWIE.

Anyways...ideas?

I'm Leaving...

angelicpawn — 2005-07-13T04:07:45-05:00

I love you all.

You've meant so much to me over the years, months, days, and minutes I've known you.

I am gonna miss you all so much.

Even though I've only known a couple of you for a little while, I'll miss you all the same, cause you meant something to me.

I am going to Maine, to Job Corps.

I got the call today. I am leaving on July 19th.

There will be computers up there, so I'm assuming that I will be able to keep you all updated.

Don't worry if you don't hear from me for a few months...

As always, you can send me mail at jc@the-vent.net or angelicpawn@yahoo.com

I love you.

I love posting the suggested tags...it amuses me...a lot...

angelicpawn — 2005-07-14T07:07:40-05:00

I love it how I post that I'm totally leaving...and not coming back for at least a few months....

and no one says anything except Lisa.

Thanks bitches.

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angelicpawn — 2005-07-26T01:07:42-05:00

Oh.snap.

I am in Maine in Job Corps...

This shit is mad fun...

I miss you all so much though...

<33333

lmao...suggested tags...hohohoha...

angelicpawn — 2005-07-29T09:07:34-05:00

Hmmm....

Maine...

So many trees, so much grass...and not the good kind either...lmao.

This guy here is getting on my nerves. I won't mention his name cause if he walks over here and hangs over my shoulder...ya know?

Anyways...the second or third day I was here, he asked me to go to his room, so I went, assuming he was gonna ask me a question, cause we were all new. I didn't go inside his room, cause I'm not that motherfuckin stupid...anyway...He asks me if I can give him head...

A MOOSE JUST RAN BY OUTSIDE THE MOTHERFUCKING WINDOW!

Phew...anyway, he stalked me for FOUR days...every time that motherfucker saw me, he'd go, "Yo, Jess you gon' come by the room tonight or what?" Then, he called me a 'bullshitter' and said I was "frontin an shit" and that pissed me off. I went to his room once cause the RA told me to go tell him to do chores, and he was standing there in his boxers, which ya know...I totally didn't mind, but he grabbed my arm and tried to motherfucking pull me into his room. He is tall, and very strong. He's 24. He is at least 6'5, and he is pretty strong. I mean, I am strong as hell, I could prolly kick a majority of the boys' asses that are here, but he was strong. That motherfucker pulled me halfway across the hall. I almost smacked him.

I miss everyone so bad. I miss Scottie...really bad...I was with him for the longest time before I left...and he is the one person that could make me come back...

I get to go to the mall they have here...I'm bringing my digital camera...so when I finally get a chance to hook that shit up...you'll see pictures of some of the people here...and ...yeah.

I can't wait to go there, cause Stan said that there's a store there called Pandora's Box, and he said it was a mixture of Hot Topic and Spencer's. Fuck yes.

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angelicpawn — 2005-08-15T09:08:55-05:00

I.Lost.My.Virgintiy.Yesterday.

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angelicpawn — 2005-10-17T10:10:18-05:00

Maine sucks.

I'm on myspace so much more than this...so you can find me there...

http://www.myspace.com/angelicpawn

oh yeah...and I'm not pregnant.

long story...one better left untold.

Maine sucks...

Homecoming...Su... Tags...lmao

angelicpawn — 2005-11-16T09:11:10-05:00

I wish I was there for you guys...

I wish I was there to see everyone on Homecoming...

You've all got to promise to send me pictures...

I'll be coming home on Sunday the 20th, so call me...947-1475...

I miss you all so much...

Have fun at Homecoming...

<3 Jess

Miss.....

angelicpawn — 2005-12-23T12:12:26-05:00

I miss Lakeville...

Beig back here for the holidays has only served to make me realize how much I mis sbeing a freshman...

I miss Art the most...yeah...all 4 periods of it...

Bringing in candy...making nonsensical drawings...being with all the people I love.

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angelicpawn — 2005-12-26T02:12:29-05:00

~~I hate Maine.~~

I miss Maine.

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angelicpawn — 2006-02-25T04:02:23-05:00

I miss everyone there so much...specially art class...

bitches.

Suggested Tags Never Bore Me.

angelicpawn — 2006-05-22T12:05:09-05:00

Holy Jumping Job Corps burritos...

Snarf...I still have a mindsay...

I feel like a neglectful parent for abandoning it...

...and sadly...I don't think my habits are going to change.

...Like I've said...GO TO MY LIVEJOURNAL!

my livejournal sn - betterthandeana

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angelicpawn — 2006-06-12T08:06:23-05:00

Guess what? I met the man of my life...and I am going to be moving to Washington State to live with him. I never knew a love like this was possible...and I know one like ours can never be duplicated...

I don't know when I will be able to check my mindsay, or my myspace, or anything else... but you guys all know my email address...

as well as any and all mail will be forwarded to me.

I love you all...many memories...

<3 Hardcore love...

Jessica's MindSay Blog

~*BoReD*~

*YaWn*

*HmMmMmMmM.......*

RaWrM....

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Mad.....RaWr!

YaY!

I F*cking Hate My Life!

I Just Don't Know Anymore....

MCAS!

YaY!

WOWZERZ!

Fucking Pisses Me Off.....

YaY!

Yes...I'm a Mindsay Klepto!

FuCk!

UnClE FuCkEr!

Canadian Burger eh?

Bored...

Another Instance of Klepto-ism

My best friend eh?

Maybe It's Intuition...But Some Things You Just Don't Question...

*OvEr KaThRyN's*

On Crisco's Couch!

Accurate?....you tell me...

On Crisco's Couch (continued)

Blah...

Hope Dangles On A String...Like Slow Spinning Redemption...

I'm Blacker Than Michael Jackson!

Mindsay Kleopto-ism! Thankies Crisco!

I Am A Girl Anachronism!

SHHH....Brian Is Sleeping...

Brian Kills Kittens

MAD

Wouldn't Life Be Easier?

It's Cold, It Feels Like Independence Day And I Can't Break Away From This Parade....

Gotta Love That Family Guy!

The Gay Kids Are Going To Gay City... - Scott's Dad

R Is For Relationships

CVS, Bitches!

Thank You For Choosing Middleborough CVS, This Is Jessica Speaking, How May I Help You?

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Like I Said, I'm A Mindsay Klepto!

Thankies Scott...I'll try..Though I feel Like Shit...Call Me And Make Me Feel Better...!

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Scottie - The Reason For Dead Kittens Everywhere

You Ordered A Large Cheese Pizza? *Snicker, Snicker* *click*

You Ordered Large Cheese Pizza, Small Pepperoni?

Aaron Says I Smell Like Dried Semen!

Chips Won't Make Me Feel Better Tonight, Aaron!

The Gay Kids Are Going To Gay City!

More Stuff You Didn't Need To Know!

It Seems Like I Can Finally Rest My Head On Something Real...I Like The Way That Feels...

True Life: I'm A Retarded Whore!

PeNis

The Gay Kids Have Conquered Gay City!

Unbrreakable...What, You Though They Call Me Mr. Glass?

Work In 2 Hours...

Hope Dangles On A String...

All This Time You Were Pretending, So Much For My Happy Ending...

I've Been Deprived Of The Best Ultra Sex...

Heh...Click It Bitches...You Know What'll Happen!

Ultrasex...Not Ultra Sex...Okay Nate? :p

Fill Out The Survey Bitches!

Remember That Thing You Didn't Want Me To Talk About, Scottie?

On Monday..I am Waiting...By Tuesday...I Am Fading...

Work In 3 Hours...

Tap On My Window, Knock On My Door, I Wanna Make You Feel Beautiful...

I'm A WoRm ErAsEr?

All I Have...All I Have Is Insane...

Hope Dangles On A String...

Brian Is Sexy...

Finally...Peace Talks Are In Progress...

I Will Suck Your Penis...right now!

The Last::Last Car Ride:: Monday...to work Last Kiss:: 3 weeks.. Last Good Cry

Undercover Agent...

I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right, I swear I'm right...

~BoReD~

YaWn

HmMmMmMmM.......

OvEr KaThRyN's

You Ordered A Large Cheese Pizza? Snicker, Snicker click

Bagel in the Morning....

Rolls Eyes

stab

~Beauty School Drop-Out~